Just A Dream

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Danno collapsed back onto his bed, completely wiped out. Emotionally and physically. Even though his interaction with Layha had been positive the look she had given him when he described Riggy walking had stuck with him. A small sorrowful look. Like the look you'd give a kid who just got themselves into deep trouble and the only thing you could do was watch. Why had she looked at him like that? Why would she give him that achingly sorrowful look?. Speaking of aching his head was also starting to hurt more. He curled into the Fetal position and grabbed the first piece of hair his hand found. He had been intending to pull on it but he was just too tired. That had recently started making him feel better. Before The Incident whenever his hair was pulled it had just hurt but after... it was... grounding...? Just... felt good...? Calming...? He didn't know. But it staved off the persistent nervousness and anxiety that always buzzed away at the back of his mind ever since his initial anxiety attack back when Riggy had first disappeared... no... it went back further than that... was it from... the first Bunny Girl? No... what had HAPPENED to her anyway? She had just... vanished... but it hadn't been her... no... the feeling had buried itself deep inside him LONG before that... had it been there BEFORE The Incident? Maybe... but DEFINITELY not to the degree that he struggled with now. What had the shelf DONE to his brain to make him so anxious? Maybe it had hit a spot that regularlated stress levels? It MUST'VE... it'd barely missed the important parts of his brain and it had even grazed his Optic Nerve and he had only just avoided going partially blind because of it. Danno sighed heavily and grabbed his arms in that criss-crossed I'm-mad-at-you-/-I'm-feeling-scared-or-distressed kind of way. That position had always felt comforting but now it was different. It protected his internal organs and let him feel his heartbeat so he could adlest semi-accurately gauge his anxiety level. Danno stuck his hand off his bed and fished his phone off the floor. He sat up turned it on and slowly put in the pass code then turned on the camera. He'd done this before - posted the videos on YouTube and everything. Videos of him talking about some random topic that floated into his head but this was different. He wasn't going to post this one... he just needed to talk and there was no-one at home to talk to... he turned the camera's angle so it was facing him hit record and let everything pore out. Everything about how Joey and Layha were so worried about him for some reason... how he was kind-of-worried-but-also-really- happy that Riggy was speaking coherently again... how his head was always hurting and he wanted it to stop so bad but he knew he couldn't do anything about it... and the little bouts of intense panic and nausea that where triggered by ANY kind of imagery of blood. Even if he got a tiny paper cut on his finger. If it was bleeding it triggered a full-on panic attack. Everything that was messing with his head and body. When he was done he turned off the recording and sighed heavily again. He hadn't realised he was crying until he rubbed his eyes and his hands came away wet. He wiped his hands on his jacket to get rid of the wet feeling and then inhaled wobbly then exhaled slowly. He could feel that his heart was going a little fast but it wasn't pounding or anything his face felt really hot too. He started tapping his chest in sync with his heartbeat. He felt kind of sick like his heart had fallen out of his chest and into his stomach.

Tap.

Tap.

Tap.

Tap.

Tap.

Had he eaten anything lately? Not much... maybe that was why he felt sick... he started tapping a little more rapidly on one of the quarter-lemon shaped buttons on his overshirt. He REALLY didn't want to throw up... it WAS unlikely though. He didn't feel sick... just the urge to get a drink and some cookies lay down and just draw until dinnertime. That and a weird icky feeling that had only just started but he already wished would stop. Danno laid down and back into his curled up ball position. Maybe he should eat something. Maybe that would make him feel better... he got up and stumbled into the kitchen. He was craving cookies. Or ANYTHING chocolatey really... he reached up onto a shelf and grabbed a packet of biscuits picked out a couple and then sat on the counter eating one of them. The icky feeling DID go away a little so it was obviously being caused BY a lack of food. He closed his eyes and put his other hand in his hair. Then he felt a tap on his shoulder he looked up and... it was Riggy! He was leaning heavily on the bench but he was still standing. "Hey..." said Danno his voice sounded croaky for some reason. "Where were you? And... wherever you were did you have a good time?" "Uh yeah..." said Riggy shifting himself awkwardly and getting up on the bench with Danno. "I had a pretty good time" "but where WERE you?" Said Danno taking a bite out of his cookie. "You disappeared for a good few hours! Where did you go?" "Oh" said Riggy. "Don't worry... me and Rosey were just in Toonville... it's where we live..." "oh okay then..." said Danno but then he thought of something else. "Hey Riggs-" he said then he realised what he had called Riggy. " wait no... Oh my gosh..." Danno buried his face in his hands. "That sounded so weird." Riggy laughed... then looked kind of distant... like he was replaying a memory that he shouldn't have. "Nah it's fine..." he said. "what did you want to ask?" "Oh..." said Danno. "I just wanted to ask... if you live somewhere else... why are you here? Also... how did you get hurt? I know I found you because you fell out of a tree or something... what happened there?" "I dunno..." said Riggy. "It's kind of a blur... but I remember... tearing paper... wind blowing in my fur as I fell... a loud cracking noise as my body hit the ground... pain... blood... darkness... feeling grass on my face... Rosey yelling... feeling like the ground was spinning underneath me... my ears ringing... and... darkness... and your voice... I remember your voice too... I didn't know it was your voice at the time though... like... I remember fading in and out and like... I heard you running... I heard your voice but I couldn't decipher any of your words... and I vaguely remember you crying... like UGLY CRYING... with the sobbing gaspy thing" "oh... that was because I felt your head was all bloody and... I dunno it did SOMETHING in my brain and I had a sobbing episode." Danno stuffed the rest of the cookie in his mouth then tossed a different one to Riggy. Somehow he missed it and it fell onto the counter. He didn't pick it up. "Anyway..." said Danno trying to push away the foggy memories of that one Friday night. "You mentioned hearing ripping paper... what was that about?" Riggy shook his head and starting tugging on his tail. "I... I don't know... I just know I was were I lived... and... I fell through something... and then I was here... I just... can't remember much..." "Eh" said Danno shrugging. " It's fine... I've had my fair share of memory problems myself... I get it... it's not exactly easy to remember stuff when your head is always hurting..." "oh believe me..." said Riggy putting a hand/paw (I still haven't decided what to call them) on his bandaged head. "I know" "speaking of your head..." said Danno. "How's it feeling? I know I ask you a lot but-" "you have lots of anxiety surrounding my well-being because I'm reckless I know" Riggy grinned. "I may have only been conscious for a month but I STILL had enough time to watch your behaviour around me... I'm not emotionally blind you know..." Danno laughed. Kinda nervously actually and started rubbing his arms again. Then he took a bite out of his second-last cookie and put his hands in his hair again. His head felt like it was going numb but it also still hurt at the same time. Which shouldn't have been possible but apparently was. He didn't realise he had zoned out Riggy until he started snapping his fingers infront of his face. "Hey... HEY! Danny! You okay? You look kind of pale" Danno rolled his eyes playfully "Riggs I barely go outside OF COURSE I'm pale!" Riggy laughed but then got serious again. "No... I mean paler then usual... are you feeling okay?" "Yeah..." said Danno crossing his fingers behind his back.

"I'm fine"

Well that was something... ~✌

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