FALLING FOR MR CEO

Chapter Nine: ><Reminisce!><(UNEDITED)

while writing this chapter this song came to me.i think it suits this chapter and the charcter's plight.you'll understand better when you listen to the song so check it out.
*Let her go by passenger*

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Its been exactly 2 weeks since the death of my brother and his wife.I still have nightmares most nights and sometimes it gets to a point that i dread falling asleep.I keep busy with work inorder to distract myself.Its safe to say i was at my lowest point..i haven't been able to see bridget because she went for a music concert in Manhatten with the kids of Crane music school..something to do with brodening the minds of the kids and of course max was not exempted.I was at home in my study going through some paper work when my door suddenly burst open and jerry walked in..

"There is a reason why cell phones were invented you know"i clearly stated to him due to his impromtu visit.He looked pissed as he stared at me

"Well since you refused to take any of my calls i decided to come make sure you were still alive.."He said as he walked to my fridge to get a drink."Man its sunday and you've got your face buried in those papers..even if you dont admit it,i know you miss her".He said as he took a seat staring squarely at me.

"I dont know what you are talking about.i have alot of work to do so please get out of my office"i said not looking at him.

"Cut the crap! ever since bridget left with max you hardly leave your office and when you finally do,your in here buried in your work..i cant believe i'm saying this but you need to get laid..relieve some tension".he paased me a drink and winked at me.

"i dont need to get...laid.all i need is some time to myself which i had untill you ruined it"i sipped my drink looking at my friend who didnt seem to be getting the hint.

"I'm your best friend and i know you as much as i know that you dont go into solitude for the fun of it..so you better fess up right here and now because i'm not leaving this house unless you talk to me so i suggest .You Start.Talking."I sighed as i looked at him.knowing that there was no point arguing i decided to talk.

"I dont know Jer.This past few days i spent with bridget has been a blast.i smiled so much that my cheeks hurt.I felt so good inside.Something i have not felt in a while"I stopped talking as i poured myself another drink.jerry kept silent waiting for me to continue...This was way harder than i thought.

"I'm not a child so i know what i am feeling.i like bridget..more than is healthy..the small amount of time max has been with me has been awesome.that kid reminds me so much of myself when i was his age and honestly,he has made me feel human.."

"I love that kid like he were my own son..i'm afraid that very soon i'ld wake up from this beautiful dream and face the harsh reality.You remember Vivian,how i destroyed her,i loved her but yet i destroyed her.Even my elder brother wasn't spared.Everything i touch turns to ash.everything i love,i destroy" Jerry was about to say something when i held up my hand.

**Flashback**

**Ten years ago**

"you cant possibly say that.Harris he is just a friend.you cannot decide who i stay friend's with and who i should cut out of my life.you cannot ask me to severe all forms of relationship with Derek just because your jealous".

"it is either him or me"..i stormed out of vivian's apartment furious after our arguement.we have been together for over two years now and things were getting serious between us.she was a nurse by profession and we met when i went over to her hospital to see my sick friend.after some time i proposed and she became my fiancee .we were so much in love with each other...we started having problems because her best friend also happened to be in love with her but i didn't think it was love,more like an obsession.vivian was too naive to realise that.i never liked him from the start.there was always this wierd vibe i felt whenever i saw him.i warned her to stay away from him but she refused.she would always pin it down to me being jealous.