That's your family

slightly retarded child

Despite Juice not coming home last night I decided to get along with my life. He is bound to learn that I am not some old lady who sits around for her man to come home. My mom called wanting for me to help her at TM today. When I got there she told me all about the tragedy that happened at funtown. I joke that my mother still doesn't see her kids as adults but when I looked at the paper work, there really wasn't much to do. Mom just wanted me in sight, despite being an adult she can still see the child in me. 

Every now-and-then Juice would poke his head inside but I would just give him a look and do something like lower the blinds. Finally, I went outside of the office for lunch and I was struck with a surprise as Tara  was at the shop. I saw her talk to Jax and then he kissed her and our mother. That was enough to get me fuming and even more Juice came out of no where and grabbed my arm, wanting to talk. I interrupted him asking where Jax was going and he quickly explained almost out of breath, "Him and Bobby are going to the Devils Tribe for a patch over" I rose my eyebrow and questioned, "In Nevada? In the middle of Mayan territory?" I could only sigh as Juice tried to reason with me. With just one look he could tell that I was worried about the patch over party. Juice and me are already having trouble how were we suppose to do with the whole "what happens on the road stays on the road thing" He all of a sudden held me and whispered, "I am missing the party, so is Tig, but I will be working with the club". No surprise. the club is always first. I tilted my head down and just said, "Yeah, well I guess I will see you around" I just walked away waving bye to him, when I saw Half-Sac. I grinned supper big at him and jumped on his back, "Come my stallion, off to get me food" In the bar we both got beers and veggies that I packed for today and sat around goofing off.

The lunch with half-sac actually made my mood better, so much so that when the boys started to get ready for the drive I grabbed Juice's hand and ran into a back room. I kissed him hard and well you can guess what happened next. As I got up to get my clothes back on Juice came up behind me and kissed my neck holding me close.  He puller me to the bed and he pushed some hair away from my face joking, "Girl, you have had a moody day, how come?" I could only giggle a little bit and caress his face, "I'm sorry baby I was just really upset about last night. I mean I cooked a dinner and everything. I am completely moved into your house. It really felt like a special moment and I mean... Shit Juice Half-Sac was more about it than you were. I get that the rape wasn't your fault and you guys were busy. Im not stupid I heard that you got fucked up and the only reason you arn't going to the party is punishment for getting fucked up on the job! " I don't know why but that just caused me to break down. Then Juice didn't even  comfort me, his eyes just got hard and he grunted, "Half-Sac ehh?" I was tired and didn't even bother to follow him outside, where Tig was waiting for him.

No surprise I didn't see Juice again until I went to the fundraiser. Even then he didn't approach me until he saw me and Hale chatting it up. Hale straightened up when Juice swung by and placed his arm around my shoulder. After he left I swung my arm and hit Juice right across his torso. He gribbed it in a dramatized fashion going, "Dear God it hurts so bad" then he placed me in a very unsexy fireman hold shouting as me brought me back to Gemma, "Almost as bad, as a pig trying to take my gal away" He placed me down in front of my mom and she told Juice, "Oh no that boy doens't have a chance. Tammy here already went threw that little crush" Juice raised his eyebrowls in a joking fashion suggesting, "Oh really. Miss Teller, would you mind telling me what su madre means by that?" I just blushed and proclaimed, "Hey that was before us, and by that I mean I was young...like 10 young" Juice couldn't help but laugh so I tackled him to the floor yelling at him to stop. This went on until Opie and Jax pulled me off of him. Instantly once I saw Opie I hugged him and small chit-chatted.

Then I saw Bobby in his famous Elvis get up, so I took Juice by the hand and stood around the kids watching Elvis play...and then I saw someone I thought I never was going to see again, Kyle. Juice saw me looking at him and held my hand tighter. He bent down suggesting that we go back to help Gemma. Juice was awesome and helped me set up the food. This was honestly the most adult, family-based thing we have ever done together, even back when we weren't together. I shifted my gaze to him and asked, "You have any idea why Kyle is here?" Juice could easily see that I was uncomfortable with him being here, I can only imagine hoe Opie feels. Juice was about to speak but Opie came up with his kids and we knew it wasn't the right time or place. But apparently Gemma herd my question as she went up to Jax, I assume to find answers. I got up and made Opie's family all some of the amazing chili and small talked with them. Trying to help the kids feel comfortable around us again.  The fact that Donna wasn't fuming mad about Kyle led me to belief that no one told her that Kyle was the reason Opie got caught and thrown in jail. Opie went off to do firework stuff and I continued to play like a child. I was so preoccupied with the water gun fight that I only watched Donna and Jax talk before Juice got me and I chased to get him back. 

I had barely gotten completely dry when Juice came up to me and just picked me, and whispering in my ear. "Hey, sexy wanna bail for a bit. I have a joint in my bike" I placed my hands on his face and replied, "Juice, how do you know exactly what to say" By the time we got back to the fundraiser Bobby and Tig hinted for Juice to see them for a bit. I went to see my mom and the boys came up with haha guess what? Club shit to do. The thing that was different today was that I wasn't mad. I was feeling the same disappointing pain that my mom felt. You know that feeling when you just are having the perfect day, only for it to end and all of a sudden you are back to being alone just hoping that if you go to sleep, that when you wake up your life wouldn't have anymore plot twist.

Feeling left out of the boys club only hurt sometimes. Supposedly there is a close knit almost old lady club. However with me not being an old lady and all I often felt left out of this mini club. It happened when I was a kid and at eight Jax and Opie no longer being around the house and out with the club. It happened whenever I was around crow eater and mom would shew me out of the room. It happened now as I watched my mom walk away and looking around, I had no reason left to be here. Once again my night ended with me jumping into my SUV and driving home alone.