That's your family

Uncle Otto

The next day I met up with Gemma for a little lunch, after all the boys had left. I made sure to dress JJ up real cute for our little lunch date, and I dressed up a little bit too wearing a long, light weight maxi dress. I saw my mother just as we parked, she was sitting outside waiting, just smoking a cigarette. Her eyes lit up as she saw one of her grandsons and she gave me a quick hug before taking JJ out of my arms and into her own. We sat down outside and began to chit chat. I asked her how Piney was doing and she replied "he is fine, left the hospital a little bit ago. By any chance did you ask or talk to you about something while he was in there" I shrugged my shoulders, "no, not really. He tried to shake me off about his health it really bothers me that he can be on the hospital and just brush it off". She smiled and took my hand, "Well you know how these men can be baby. He  just doesn't want you to worry after all we are getting old. It did not seem that long ago that your father and I took all three of you here" I smiled a little to myself and brushed some of JJ's dark hair out of his face, "and now you can take all three of your grandchildren here" She laughed and joked, "Well who knows you and Tara make anymore babies and I just might need a bus to take my grand babies everywhere" I blushed at the idea, "I can't speak for Tara and Jax but I don't think Juice and I will be making another baby anytime soon". Gemma raised her eyebrow, "trouble in paradise" I shook my head, "no, no, nothing like that. I just think our next step would be something more like-" Gemma cut me off then, "Well he already gave you a crow and a baby. I'm sure that is about as serious as it gets". I felt like frowning, yes Juice and mine relationship have stabilized a little bit since JJ was born but still, maybe she is just saying this since Jax and Tara just got engaged. On the other hand it would be nice if JJ had two married parents. I couldn't help but think of when I met that one guy... Lincoln I think his name was. I can still hear, "boyfriend not husband" it just sounds wrong.

JJ jerked me out of my thoughts when he knocked some pepper off the table. When I received it Gemma continued our conversation, "When was the last time you saw Otto?" I ran my figure in my hair, "Right after JJ was born" She nodded her head, "I'm thinking about visiting him later if you want to join". I answered "yeah that is a really good idea" the rest of the lunch JJ stole the spotlight acting cute for grandma. I drove the car back to the house with Gemma following and packed more supplies for JJ in his diaper bag and moved his car seat into Gemma's SUV. For anyone who doesn't know having a baby in the car makes road trips so much longer than they are without a baby.

When we sat across the table from Otto his wrist were wrapped up, "means to an end" he said. Apparently a man visited with a report that Bobby was sleeping with Luann before she died. He looked old and tried, but his love for his dead wife was still so strong. He wants us to find the man who killed his wife. As fast as it takes to flip a coin he changed his attention to me and JJ. JJ laughed and grabbed his hands playing with them. Otto told me how good I looked and still couldn't believe that my son was getting so big. It is good that the younger generation knows the older ones. I am apart of the portion that shouldn't let our boys on the inside be forgotten. I held Otto's hand, "Want me to bring Juice up so you can see just how much he looks like his daddy?" He shook his head, "No baby, this is simple my time is up. Please just let me tie up some lose end so I can leave in piece". I kissed his hand before we headed off. The whole ride all I can think about it Otto, I grew up with him being the biggest and baddest, now as an adult it felt like he has fallen so much. I just pray that Jax, Juice, and JJ never grow up to be in Otto's situation. An old lady sleeping with another member is a silent fear that most of the men have, I know they have it because I have seen it happen all too often.

I hung around the office when Gemma went inside to tell the club about Otto. What worried me less was that every now knows Bobby was sleeping with Luann but that Juice wasn't there and wasn't answering his phone. By the time he called me back I left JJ with Gemma and headed to the parking lot as Clay walked in, waving at me. Juice claimed that he had to pick up parts but it smelled like bullshit to me. I told him that JJ met Otto and he fully supported me.

I have been taking JJ more and more to the daycare at the hospital. He keeps on growing more social. Other moms have been taking me to more mommy classes and social gatherings. Juice keeps on getting more and more stressed, and telling me less and less. Last time I saw him he said that the boys were close to finding Luann's killer. Some how I just had a gut feeling that this wasn't the only thing bothering about. When he didn't come home last night I started to worry. Yeah, I am used to late night nights, but eventually he does come home. When Juice is here he gives me his all, but he is almost never here. He says he loves me, and I know that I love him but I feel like a side piece.

Whenever I used to have problems with Juice I had someone to talk about it. I headed to the club house to look for Juice when I ran into Lyla. As soon as I saw her I shouted, "Hey! Have you seen Juice? He didn't come home last night." She walked over and stood by me as I unbuckled JJ, "No, I haven't I just got here but strangely that makes me feel more relaxed. Opie didn't come home either last night." We both giggled a little bit, relieved that it was propably just club stuff instead of the fear in every old lady's mind. I winked at her, "So you think our men are going to leave us for each other?" She winked back, "Well maybe we should them first for each other" I started to bounce JJ, "What do you think kid? You want another mommy and some siblings?" He had zero reply as he bounced and I handed him off to Lyla since his diaper bag slid under the seat. As soon as I grabbed JJ's bag I saw Tara storm out with Gemma hot on here heels. "Hey mom" then I winked at Tara, "sis. Did one of you see Juice or Opie, they didn't come home last night" Gemma reassured that they had a late night and tried to make us feel better. A few bikes rolled in and I hooked arms with Lyla. Then she dragged me to the club house. "Where is she" Then Ima came out. Lyla ask her who she stayed with. Ima fucked Opie. Ima pulled a gun out and pointed it at everyone, including me with my son.

I took the fuck out of there. I was fuming. That meant that Juice was most likely here to with some whore.

I put JJ back in the car seat and pulled out, with Tara and my mom banging on the SUV demanding that I stay. I took to the road and drove. My phone kept on blowing off so I turned it off. All I did was text Jax, "Be back when I am back.". So pissed that I stopped by a gas station and bought a pack. I smoked one right out side of the car and watched JJ who is now asleep. I thought of the transcript. Yeah my father was an ass who left us, but he wasn't wrong about it either. When JJ woke up I took him to the park and sang and helped him stand up and bounce. I herd a Harley roll up and I freaked out until I saw Lincoln get off. He waved to me and I waved back, He walked up and said,"Isn't he a little too young to fully enjoy the park" I smiled at him, "Shouldn't you have a child to be at a park" He answered "touche. I don't question you and you don't question me". He let it go quiet before, and it was peaceful. JJ began to get grouchy and I said my good byes to Lincoln, this time giving him a hug. I went home and gave JJ a bottle. Tara was the one who texted me that Juice got shot. I called Gemma to watch JJ while I watched Tara patch up Juice. I called Chibs out for a smoke and we talked.

"Chibs, please tell me you know what the fuck is going on with him" He just shook his head, "That was just club shit" I looked at him and hugged him, resting my head on his chest, "Is that why he didn't come home last night" He kissed my forehead, "I don't know what to tell you love". Tig walked out with Juice limping on his arm. I broke from my hug and followed Juice and Tig.