That's your family

Belfast

Juice left in the morning to pick up Jax from the police station. I spent half of that morning vomiting. Everything made me feel sick to my stomach. I have had to take too many days of work so I just sent in my two weeks along with cashing in the rest of my sick days/vacation days. I drove to the clubhouse to spend the day with Kozik. I showed him my crow, how I had to quit my job.  Patients seems to be my word of the day. For even when Juice came back he locked himself away with his computer. No doubt trying to find my nephew. Kozik took me out to dinner and when we came back Juice was out front. He waved and ran right to me, showing me a photo of Cameron with a baby. They are going to Vancouver. Right past Juice I could see Ally Lowen, co-council to Rosen, the clubs lawyer.  I said bye to Juice as he headed into Chapel and I followed Ally to her car. I yelled out a "hey wait up" and she stopped short of her car. I took my hand out to shake hers and introduced myself, "Hi, I am Tammy Teller. Is there anything new going on in the case" She shook my hand and replied, "Nice to meet you Miss Teller. Yes there has been an update. Jacob Hale and the Charming City Council have requested a new bail hearing for the Sons on their pending Federal weapons charge; the upshot is that all the members involved in the assault on Zobelle's church may be returned to prison. " I felt the vomit come up again, and I waved bye as I headed to the side. I knew I wouldn't make it to bathroom. I vomited on the side of the building, I could feel myself sweat. I stood outside for a few more minutes before going into the backroom to brush my teeth. I come out of my room and see Lyla at the bar with a drink in her hand. I walked by and asked her, "I don't think I have ever seen you drink so early, is everything good" She explained to me that since Luann's passing she has taken over a lot of her duties but is still an actress since staff is so low, which Opie hates. She started talking about a party and I face anger and confusion at once.  How can Abel be missing yet there be enough time to plan a porn party. I excused myself and ran to the back room where I still had a box of Kip's things.

I guess there is a god who does have mercy. It is only because I was crying in that room at that moment looking at Kip's thing is why I herd his cell phone ring. I figured it was best to tell the other person at the end of the line what happened. The voice sounded familiar and when I asked who wait. It was Cherry. I felt bad and started to cry as I told her about the accident. I told her that he really loved her and when she left it broke his hart. In return she told me that Cameron's body was in Belfast, which means that Abel may be there. In Belfast is a charter to help with the search also. I headed straight to the porn party to tell everyone.

I jogged out of the parking lot straight to the party. I don't know why this cruel joke was played on me but once I saw Juice I forgot what I was there for. Juice was sitting down with two ugly ass half naked girls in his lap. I saw red. He looked straight at me and his grin dropped from his face. I turned and left. I went straight to my Escalade as I Opie and I made eye contact. It was unsure over who was the most pissed off but I didn't care. Juice and I have spent little to no time together. I have brushed it off as him working his but off for the club and my family. Once I hit my car I vomited again but this time I rushed into the car straight to an ATM. I withdrew a grand and drove off to the nearest air port. I had to wait for ten hours but I also got the one way ticket for $700. When I landed I called Cherry with a burner phone that no one knew about and she drove to Dublin to pick me up. The worst part of traveling? I craved American and Mexican food with the closest thing to that was McDonalds.

I was in the car with Cherry and this time we actually got to know each other. I guess I was just so mad at the pain she caused my mom by going to Charming that I never gave her a chance. Well this time I did, with the promise that she wouldn't tell anyone who I was, the reason I was here or not to tell any of my family that I was here. I only told her that I needed down time from my old man, I tried to be sensitive about Kip.

She told me that I could stay with her, but just in case her new man Liam O'Neill got nosey I told her to drop me off at a near hostel. I sat in my bed at the hostel while trying to organize all my notes, ignoring all the other people in the room when I got a call from Cherry. I locked all my stuff up and headed outside. She said that she found an envelope full of cash, she couldn't say much at that moment but she did give me an address to a close by coffee shop and suggested we meet up so she can talk to me in the morning.  I felt worn out, and nausea. Originally I thought it was the stress getting to me but maybe I am just sick. I thought of Juice and Jax all night. Even if they don't deserve to know that I am safe, Kozik and Happy do.

The next morning I did meet up with Cherry, and another girl named Trinity. Cherry walked up and hugged me, "Please trust me Tammy. Something strange is going on here between the IRA and SAMBEL. We don't know what it is exactly but Trinity herd her mother over the phone. Abel is here somewhere. The thing is even if we knew where he was I don't know if we could retrieve him anyway" I looked out the window. Ireland was so different from California. I excused myself to the bathroom to you guessed it vomit. When I looked up from rinsing my mouth I saw Trinity just staring like a freak. I let out a "what" and walked right past her leaving. I waved bye to Cherry on the other side of the window and went to the nearest drug store. There I bought one item, a pregnancy test. Once I paid for the test I headed straight to the bathroom in the back. Once the demonic little pink plus sign solidified, moking me I threw it away and proceeded to pee on the others till the box was gone. All had the same sign that my life was over.

And yet, for once I did not cry about it. I didn't know what I was going to do as far as that problem, but I pushed it to the back of my mind as I headed out. I sat in the hostel and spent that whole day studying Belfast. Trying to understand how can you hide a baby. Where are all the stores that would supply baby stuff? Where are all the foster homes in the area? Record of newly adopted babies? I looked everywhere I could. I frown as I shut the computer and went outside for some fresh air. If Juice was here he could look faster and more online than I ever could. I groaned at my situation. This was the first time I really thought about him. I really wanted a cigarette and then looked down at my stomach. I know nothing about actually raising a baby. When do I need to hit a hospital? A thought came in my mind to just go home and worry about myself, too bad I was not raised to abandon family. I looked up at the sky and whispered, "Don't worry Abel, we will find you". 

By the time I went back to the hostel I had made a decision. If Trinity is right than her mother must know something about Abel. I would have to make it known that I am here and looking for him. I don't know if this will put my in trouble, if they will call SAMCRO, or if someone will be sent from the states to come get me. I figured it would be best for me to call Kozik at least. I know he is freaking out not knowing where I am. I looked at the cell in my hand and started typing in his phone number. With a deep breath I hit the call button, trying to ignore the feeling in the pit of my stomach as I listened to the ringing. I herd a familar voice answer the phone and I told him, "Kozik it's Tammy, listen before you go and tell Juice to track or yell at me. I am in Belfast. I know that Abel is here too. Right now no one knows I'm here but I am in a dead in so I'm about to make it known." I could hear heavy breathing at the other end of the line. "Ok, Tammy. If there ever was a time in your life to listen to me this is it. Stay where ever you are and don't go outside. I don't care if I have to fly out there myself to go get you. Just stay put." The call actually got dropped after that. I sat in the same spot debating to listen to him or not. He had on his serious voice, and I do have to look out for more than just me now on. I rubbed my stomach, no one home still knows. Kozik was right, I should wait. I wouldn't be surprised if I woke up to him getting off a plane.