That's your family

"car crash"

The next day I woke up to a shit storm. Turns out Happy held my hair back and out me to bed. Then Juice told Happy to quit it. All I know was I woke up to the news Gemma was in a car crash last night. She told everyone she was fine but still about half the club stood in the waiting room for her. And by "stood" I mean everyone was making a jack ass of themselves, but even with the hangover I couldn't help but smile. Jax went to talk to Tara and I stood back. Juice held my hand and I smiled up at him. I then kissed his cheek, I really am lucky to have him.

Then the news hit. Feds raided Luann's studio. Jax left to see Otto and I told Jax to send a kiss his way from me. I wanted to stay for my mother while the boys took care of business, but Tara told me to go out and buy some stuff like gauze for her.

I know what it was. I have been sent out by enough bullshit errands to know when it is just an excuse to dismiss me. I don't know what's going on but for once I am glad I don't know. Even if Tara is getting close to my mom.

I had enough on my mind. Even more know that the boys are doing porn with Luann. Not that Juice told me. I found out while at the club house after work. Actually it was Happy that told me. Who can blame him for letting it slip, he was just so excited. I was so mad, and then I also herd about Bobby getting shot. Apparently Miss Tara is also the clubs doc now. I am so sick of this shit. It's like I am getting pushed out of my own family. Not that Juice is ever home when he can just circle jerk with Chibs at CaraCara. I don't know what do. Maybe I should go to Washington for a bit. Go see Kozik. Doubt Juice would even notice I'm gone. So I left a note and went to CaraCara to see Gemma. Got there just in time to see the fight. Then the breakdown happened, I can't leave mom now. That's what Charming does, it just never lets you leave.

I actually talked to Tara today. Needed another old lady to talk about the open starts running around. The thing that bothered me the most was less CaraCara and more of how it didn't bother me. It was less Juice being around it, and more the disrespect I felt of having my boyfriend around it. Fuck, Juice basically ignores me or goes off and does something stupid if I try to break up. Maybe I need to tighten the collar. Go back to being a real person, instead of some accessory.

I hung out at the club house with Half-sac helping him clean so he can hit the wrapping party with the others. We were laughing while he was sweeping when the boys rode in. Juice walked right up to me and threw his arm over me kissing my cheek and winking at Kip. I tore from Juice and told Kip I would finish up for him. Juice looked at me once Kio left and grabbed my hair kissing me, "with everything going on I get why we are in the rocks, lets go out tomorrow. A lunch date right before the drive."

I tell myself I am done and then he makes me remember why I felt for him. I didn't wait up for him, but I was surprised when he came in relatively early. He just crawled in my bed and started kissing my neck. Well i woke up and it reminded me when i was nineteen and he would come to my apartment after a long run. Not a bad way to end the night, if I do say so myself. I woke up to the smell of pancakes and just looked at Juice for a few minutes as he cooked, just in his boxers. I came up behind and hugged him, kissing his back. When he turned around he handed me a plate and we got to eating. We talked and made our way back to the bedroom. When we were finally done I kissed him and headed in the SUV to TM. Juice wanted me to watch them head off.

I watched him headed off any then looked around. Well fuck now it's just old ladies and hang arounds. Not really my style so I went home and cleaned up the house a bit. Juice loves a clean house with everything organized. Even went to the grocery store to buy more fresh fruits and veggies.

Juice came back the next day and created me with a big sloppy kiss. I guess he decided to really start trying. I went off to and he went off the the shop. I had a peace of mind. Luann is doing better, Juice is behaving, who knows maybe if he keeps this up I will ask Happy to give me a crow.

I decided to stop by the shop after work, maybe give a hand, maybe go to on a date with Juice after. There are a few good movies out that I want to see. I drove up and greeted several of the guys. Mom was out so I went to help with the paperwork. Juice came in when he saw me and kissed me on the cheek while I gave dog some paperwork. Once Dog headed out Juice started making out with me joking in my ear, "remember when we used to joke about having sex on your mom's desk, you know she isn't coming back today cutie" I laughed and pushed him off, "you sir are needed in the clubhouse" he held my hand and I yelled, "after work you want to go watch a not porn movie" he groaned and ran back to me kissing me on the lips. "At five there is a church meeting but right after it needs to be just but how about right after its just you and me. We can go get some dessert somewhere, before we you know get some dessert." I rolled my eyes and spanked his but, "get out of here Ortiz before I change my mind"