That's your family

calming down

After that night with Juice things seemed to go more smoothly for me. I didn't stick my head in club business and kept myself occupied at work and even began to see Abel daily. Juice would still be out late doing stupid things with halfsac, which they have become quite close. Juice even made it a point to come home to me and I usually made him dinner and cleaned up the o his OCD standard. One day I got a text from Juice to come up to the club house for a surprise.

When I got there so was Happy! I was glad he was there but a little worried seeing as he is only in town for "work". We sat on the bar and drank, he needed a new smile face and asked me to do it. It is clearly the worst one on him. It was weird having used to hook up with him in Washington and then being on my knees in front and of him shirtless made me a little bashful. I got up almost instantly and went out where Juice joined me and joked about how I looked terrified to mess up the tattoo. Somehow us being on the topic of tattoos brought up me getting my crow. That made me even more nervous than before and I tried to Brush it off. I tried to reason with Juice that we hadn't been dating THAT long and anything else I could think of. He rolled his eyes and gave me a goody grin showing me that he wasn't too serious. He wrapped me in his arms and whispered, " I know you aren't ready yet but this is something that you should think about. Baby you have been mine and you always will be till the die I die."

I was only reminded of my strong ties to the club when this blond little bitch came up to me while I was on my lunch break trying to ask me questions. As soon as I saw he she looked like a stick was shoved up her ass. She looked and smelled like a federal agent. She stood next to my chair while I was eating and smoothly asked, "Tammy Teller?" For the most part since she didn't look like a big time client or donator I actually got to ask like a bitch and gruff, "who is asking" that was when she pulled out her badge. Damn ATF. I don't know really anything about what the sons do but enough to pick up that this might screw them. She then just invited herself to sit in front of me and start talking like she knows me, "Tammy Teller. Twin of a deceased Thomas Teller, sister of Jackson Teller. Daughter of Gemma and John Teller. Also from my understanding old lady to a Juan Ortiz. My that  creates a lot of Tues to the Sons of Anarchy" I didn't give her any emotions all I did was eat another grape and calmly replied. "A lot of research for someone who isn't going to talk to you. I know nothing I see nothing I saw nothing. Any other questions can be directed to my lawyer unless you are going to arrest me. In which case she needs to be contacted anyway. I didn't give her another look and I ignored her and the file she ploped down in front of me. I know these games they play so u took the file went into my lab, sealed it with tape and put it I my bag. After work I got in my SUV and straight to TM to shred the documents.

Somehow tho I never actually made it to TM. When Juice got home I was asleep. Eventually when I did make it to TM I left the folder and Jax told me all about what happened. I had a beer and he walked with me around the fence before actually asking me straight up if Stahl talked to me. I know I shouldn't of lied but I never want Jax to worry about me. Clay announced to everyone that Louanne was cleared of all charges and as we were about to celebrate the club got raided. It wasn't my first raid but it is never anything you want to do. When I was a child my first clubhouse raid happened. I was in a backroom watching Trollz out of the adult's way. Then there was sirens and the door was kicked in. Two grown men pointed guns at me so I did what most young kids did. I cried even after the guns were tucked away I was picked up and taken out of the club. I looked over the officer's shoulder and begged for Clay. He began yelling but I only watched as everyone laid on the ground. I didn't understand at the time why they just let a strange man take me away from them. I stopped watching Trollz after that. Mom said I was scared and would look for cops whenever it was on. You just lie on your stomach during these situations. That's what I was taught, just do what they say and not to do anything bad. The first time I learned this I was five.

They arrested Bobby for murder and a club meeting occurred right after. I kissed Juice's cheek but instead of leaving I just sat at the bar drinking. Eventually Halfsac horsed out. "Cherry is gone" I honestly didn't want to hear it but I gave him a sympathetic smile. "Turns out she is married...and wanted for arson Jax bailed her out turn out she threatened to rat out the club" That got me mad so I had him pour me a double. I was pretty buzzed when the church doors swang open and Jax stormed off. Juice saw me and I guess once he smelt the booze he just smiled, got himself a beer and suggest we go to his room for a joint. He understands me. He knew about how much I hate raids. This night did end on a happy note. Gemma texted me that Abel was almost ready to go home. Looks like soon the little guy will have his fist party to go along with his release. Who knows maybe a baby is what the club needs. Maybe this baby is exactly what Jax needs. My brothers heart was broken a long time ago. I have a feeling just by looking at him and his son. Abel is helping Jax feel real deep emotions again.