I can't believe it (TMNT fanfiction)

2. Idea

Leonardo

I pass all night to meditate in the living room. That was so relaxing and it helps me to feel bether after my nighmare.

I was deranged by Raphael who just woke up. "Morning Raph." I said. He didn't said anything and he went into the kitchen. I got up and went after him. "Raph..." I said saddly.

Everyone is depressed because of the incident but I think Raph is the most affect because he knows that someday we'll have to defeat Spinter.

"What?!" He saids with rage in his voice. "You need to let it go. (FROZEN!!!) Sensei is gone for good" I said. "AND IT'S ALL YOU FAULT!" He screams at me. "How is it my fault?" I ask simply. "IT IS OKAY?" Raph was furious again and I understand why this time. "For the first time in forever I finnaly understand you (FROZEN AGAIN GUUUYS!!). You're angry because you don't know why sensei is gone and you want to find out a reason." I said.

He looks at me like if he just see an angel. After that he graps me and hugs me. "WHY IS HE GONE?!" He cries. When Raphael cries it is because something very horrible just happen. Crap.

"I don't know Raph." I tell him. He stop crying on my shoulder and he returns to his room. This was the first time since the incident that I fell important. My brothers need me more than ever.

**time skip**

I have nothing to do right now. I can check if the others are all right but I think I'm just gonna bothering them.

I decide to go in the dojo to train a little bit. Since master Splinter is gone, no one restart training. If we have to defeat him we'll need to be prepare for anything.

Tomorrow I'll do Splinter job by training my brothers. I already did it one time and it was a catastrophe but now Sensei is gone so I have to do it anyway. I'm sure that Raphael wouldn't be happy with this but he has no choice. I'm sure that this isn't the best idea on earth but what choice do I have?

I start my training with some basic stoff. Some kicks and flips in the air and I already start feeling better. After a while I start to be tire so I decide to stop. At least for now.

I walk towards the dojo's door to get out but I turn around and face the tree where sensei was everytime I went in there. Then, I let it all go. I fall on my knees and start crying all my heart. What can I do without him?! He learned me everything I know and now he's gone! MY FATHER IS GONE!

When I finally finish to cry I slowly get up and get out of the dojo. Nobody was there. I'm tire to be alone. I'm gonna call Casey and April. No. I don't want to see them. By the way they'll give me their apologize and I don't want that. Master Splinter isn't dead he's just gone. 

I sit on the couch in the living room and open the TV but obviously nothing interesting was on. Even spaces heroes doesn't interest me. I let the television open but I start thinking about what master Splinter told me before the incident.

Am I a great leader? Maybe he was right because my brothers don't respect my oders. Is it because I'm stupid? Am I stupid? I don't know and I'm not sure I want to know.

My thoughts were interrupt by Mikey who walks in the kitchen to make a breakfast. I decide to join him.

I enter in the kitchen and Mikey was eating a pizza. "Hey." I said to start a conversation. "Hello" he said. "How are you?" I ask. "I'm fine and you?" "I'm great... So I though that we'll have to restart to train together" I said with a little hesitation in my voice. "Yeah it's a great idea bro!" He said with his normal happy voice "when do we start?" He asks "Tomorrow." I said "YEAAH!" I smile. Not because Mikey is happy with my idea but because he's back to normal. At least normal for Mikey. "I'm gonna go ask to the other to see if they want to train too" I said to Mikey as I walk to Donnie lab.

The door was close so I gently knock on the door before I open it. "Donnie?" I ask. I saw Donnie's head pop out of nowhere and looking at me. "Tomorrow we're gonna restart to train. Are you in?" I told him with a happy voice. "Yep!" He said before he returns to work. I get out of his lab and close the door. The next is Raph. That will be the hardest one to convince.

I knock to raph's door and I open it. "Hmmm Raph?" I ask with hesitation. "What do you want." He was in his bed and he was looking bad. "Tomorrow the guys and I will restart to train and I want to know if you want to juin us." I explain. "Why should I train with you?" He asks. "Because if Splinter attacks us we'll be prepare." He looks to hesitate but he finally answer. "I'm in." I smile and I close his door.

I return in the living room to see Mikey in front of the TV. "And?" He asks me with a lot of excitation in his voice. "We'll train together tomorrow!" I'm happy that everyone thinks that my idea was good because now I know that I'm not completely stupid. "YEAAAH!" His little scream makes my more happy than I already am.

**time skip**

I'm in my bed and it's 1 in the morning. I'm very tire but I can't sleep because I think to much. Am I strong enough to support the pression of being a 'teacher' and a leader for my brothers? I need to stop thinking the bad things and focus on the good but I don't have any good stoff to think about. After a whike of intensive thinking I finally fall asleep.

Hey!! An other chapter today:) again sorry for my mistakes and I hope you liked it;)

Bye little unicorn xxx

**tommorow I'm wouldn't be at my home and I have 4 hours of road to do so I'm not gonna publish but I'll try to write a lot.**