They Love It More When Its Broken~ P.S

Prologue

I lay, staring up at the ceiling, tears running down my face, my breathing was staggered.

Everyone in my house was asleep, I'd been to my friends party, it was a house party, the first house party I'd ever been too, my parents wouldn't let me go, they were worried, they did let me go in the end, it was the worst thing I've ever done, going to that house party. I thought, because I'm 17 years old, I can look after myself.

Or so I though

As I lay my head down on my pillow, the vivid memories come back.

(Flashback)

My boyfriend, Jack, gave me something, it was a cup of juice, or so I thought. I drank it, I started feeling dizzy, the world was spinning, I went all weak, he'd clearly tampered with the drink he gave me, he grabbed my hand, pulling me up the stairs to my friends house, I tried shouting, screaming but  nothing came out my mouth, my mouth was just dry and scratchy, nobody seemed bothered that I was being dragged up the house stairs, the hall way was full, my still, nobody noticed. Before I knew it, Jack was pushing me onto one of the houses beds, I panicked, he was holding me down, I couldn't move, I tried to kick and punch him off but my limbs were to weak to work, I was scared, I'd never been this scared, I trusted Jack, I couldn't breathe, his scent was a strong smell that I absolutely hated now, how could I trust anyone after this?  I tried to think, panic took over and I blanked out

(End of flashback)

The flashbacks keep coming back even if the attack was only tonight, I've had loads of flashbacks in the span of a few hours, it scary, the images, the sounds, his voice, they scare me and they won't leave my head.

Its like 4am, I got back from the party at 2am, I can't sleep, the images are haunting me, every time I calm myself down, I have another flashback and have another anxiety attack.

I heard talking from Joe's room, I quickly shoved the covers over my head and pretended to be asleep just incase Joe came into my room for some reason.

Nope, Joe didn't come in my room, for some reason he was singing 'The Phoenix' while going to the toilet.

I rolled over, the thoughts gushing back into my head, I'd forget about them for about 2 seconds, I want to forget about it forever, I wish I had Amnesia 

Wooo! first chapter of my new fanfic! Well its not really a chapter because its the prologue but still :)

If any of you guys have been through anything like the girl in the fanfic, please talk to someone or at least dm me, its better to talk to someone than keep it bothering you

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-C A I T L I N