They Love It More When Its Broken~ P.S

Chapter 3

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We'd found out suitcases and the airports starbucks, Pete went and ordered drinks, I had a frappi and the others had coffee and such.

While sipping my drink, I looked around, you could say that I was people watching, the world is strange if you think about it, we're all different, we've all been through different experiences, I mean, its a small planet in a giant universe, who knows, there might be another planet in another universe with humans like us on, thinking about what I'm thinking makes me think about how strange life is,

I was knocked out of my thoughts by Andy nudging me, he had a concerned look on his face, Oh mother Hurley is back.

'Jess, you looked lost in your thoughts, what were you thinking about?' Andy asks.

'Nothing, just about how strange the world is.' I answer, nearly floating back onto Jess Trohman planet.

'Oh, explain then.' Says Andy, looking interested, so I do, I explain about how the world is strange from people to universes.

'Oh.' Says Andy. 'I've never thought about that before but its actually something that should be researched.' I smile, Andy always understands my strange thoughts, I'm not saying the others don't but Andy understands them the most and can always relate to them in some way or another.

We finish up our drinks and follow Andy outside the airport to the long line of taxi's, we get in a taxi because Pete wanted to feel 'normal', we were meant to be going to this place that had our British tour bus in, even though we would hardly be travelling in it, we'd be in hotels most of the time, but we'd be going to the tour bus place tomorrow, right now though, we were going to the hotel that we'd be in for a few days, they'd do the London concert and then we'd be going somewhere else.

In all the rush of going to the hotel, I'd forgot about the scary thoughts of Jack and now we'd arrived at the hotel, they'd all came gushing back and boy it hurt.

I dumped my stuff on the floor and curled up in a ball on the bed, plugging my earphones into my ears and trying to hold back any escaping tears, Patrick saw me doing so, he walked over and sat on the corner of my bed, turning around to look at me, pulling me onto his lap and giving me a hug, I buried my face into the crook of his neck.

'Jess, please tell me whats the matter.' He begged.

'I just- I can't, nothing is wrong.' I mumble into his shirt.

'I know that's a lie, you don't cry for no reason.' He points out.

'I'm not ready to say.' 

'Please tell us when you're ready, we're all worried sick, you know that right?' I did know that but I've always thought nobody cared and I still do, if anyone knew what had happened they wouldn't be worried sick, they'd hate me. Patrick brushed a bit of hair out of my face and smiled at me, drying my wet, teary face with his cardigan sleeve, I'm starting to feel a bit better and I'm starting to recover from the stupid anxiety attack I just had.

'I'm here for you, we all are.' Patrick says. I just nod.

The rest of the time before bed, Patrick's words float around my head, I'm here for you, we all are. I really hope he isn't lying to me, he doesn't know whats happened, nobody except me and Jack, I want to tell them, I really do, but I know its best not to, I'm too scared to say anything, I ruin their career, I always ruin everything, I'm a mistake.

A stupid, mistake.

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