They Love It More When Its Broken~ P.S

Chapter 2

Jess POV

We had arrived at the airport, we'd checked in and were now about to board the plane. We'd bumped into a few fans, while waiting for our flight to be called, 1 girl called me a disgusting whore under her breath, I wasn't sure if Patrick, Pete, Joe or Andy heard, even if they had, they never showed any signs of hearing her.

As we stood waiting to board the plane, the girls words floated through my head, making sure that I heard them. Maybe she was right, wait no, she was 100% right, I am a disgusting whore, if I'd done what Jack wanted me to do then I'd never have these memories, these thoughts and the attack would never have happened, I should've done the shots that he wanted me to do, I am a disgusting whore, that girl is right, I don't deserve to live, if Patrick knew what I had done, he'd never want to help me, I'd ruin Joe's career if anyone knew, I'd be his slutty sister and he'd loose fans because of me, then he'd hate me.

I was knocked out of these thoughts before I got all teary and soppy, by Joe ruffling my hair as we boarded the plane, I wasn't going to ruin this tour for the guys, oh, who am I kidding, I ruin everything, I'm the biggest mistake my parents ever made, why would Joe want to take a mistake like me on tour with him, nobody really wants me, thats why all my friends left me at the end of high school, thats why Jack used me.

I shivered just thinking about him, his name made me feel sick.

'Are you cold?' Asked Joe, placing the back of his hand on my cheek to feel if I was cold or not, I shake my head.

'Why'd you shiver then?' Frowns Joe, I shrug.

'Nerves about the flight, I guess.' I lie, Joe seems to kind of believe me, unless he doesn't want to care, I'm a mistake, I'm just a plain mistake.

I sit down, we are in first class and wow, its hella posh, I was sure going to enjoy this flight.

We sit back as the plane speeds up, gradually lifting the wheels off the runway and going up into the sky. I can't help but take a few picture of the fluffy white clouds. I then pull the blind down and turn on the little TV in front of me, I put on my favourite film 'The Other Women', I loved that film, mainly because it had Cameron Diaz in, she was amazing.

When the film is over, I unplug the earphones and turn the TV off, I lay my head back and start to fall asleep, I was tired from the early morning and it was easy to drift off, I guess my head slipped because I fell onto Patricks shoulder and drifted into a light sleep.

I wake up to someone tapping lightly on my shoulder.

'What?' I grumble, sleepily.

'We are about to land.' Patrick's delicate voice whispers. I start to wake up properly and buckle my seatbelt up, opening my blind to watch the plane decent into heathrow.

While we landed, I realized that I never had a nightmare while sleeping on Patrick's shoulder, I always feel safe when I'm near Patrick, hes like a dream catcher, I never have nightmares when hes close by.

As we come below the clouds, rain starts to tap on the window and slids down, hello Britain.

As we reach the floor, everything is gliting from the rain and the sky is grey, thats how I knew that we had landed in Britain.

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