What Have I Become?

Chapter 21: The End Of Spencer Glover.

(Warning! This is a tear jerker, I cried like a baby writing this)

(Eva/your POV)

There, laid my father in a pool of his own blood.

Soon after I reached the room Sebastian ran up to me and scooped me up. I slapped at his chest.

"P-put me d-down Sebastian." I started crying. He carried me out of the room as I continued to slap his chest. He sat me me down in the hall against the wall.

He sat down beside me and pulled me into his lap and began stroking my hair. "Shhhh, It is alright love."

I looked up at him, still crying. "N-no Sebastian. It is n-not alright. I h-have already l-lost him before." I managed to say through sobs.

He cooed in my ear. "I know love. I know how it feels to lose someone you love. To have someone ripped away from you. But you will get through this, I promise."

I buried my face in his chest and he rocked me back and forth. I was still crying, but it was more of a quiet sob now.

"Shhhh." He kept whispering in my ear. "He didn't even know he had a grandchild. He didn't know his only child was getting married." I whispered.

I shot my head up at him. "Do you know how this happened Sebastian?" He looked up at the wall.

"It was suicide." I started to cry even harder this time. "W-why? Why would h-he d-do this?" He rubbed my back in a circular motion.

"I am not sure at the moment. But we will find out love, I promise." I buried my head in his chest once again.

"Can we go see him?" He pulled my head up with his hand. "Are you sure you are able to?"

I nodded. "I t-think so." He nodded and helped me up. We walked back to my fathers room and Sebastian slowly opened the door, the Undertaker had already arrived.

My father had already been placed in a bag and zipped up. Undertaker walked over to me with a sympathetic look and handed me a note.

"I am so sorry love, your father left you this." I took the note from his hand and unfolded it, it read:

"To my beloved daughter;

My dearest Eva, I am sorry I have broken my promise. I am sorry that I had to leave this earth. I could not live without your mother any longer. The pain never went away, I just made room for it. But eventually there was no room left. The nightmares were still there after I made my escape, the nightmares of your mother dying. The voices in my head never stopped telling me to give in. I am sorry I had to leave you and my unborn grandchild. I am sorry I left without saying goodbye. I am sorry I will not be there to walk you down the aisle. And I am sorry I couldn't be the father you needed. Just know how much I loved you. I leave you to your fiance, he is a great man and I know he will take good care of you. I gave him my blessing for you to wed. I left you all the money I had under my mattress for the baby. You can live without me my dear, I promise. I love you so much. Do not ever forget that."

I finished reading the note and just stared at it. Sebastian grabbed my shoulder. "Are you alright love?" I started crying halfway through the note, and now it was worse.

"H-ow c-could he just l-leave me?" I turned to Sebastian and buried my face in his chest. He stroked my hair with his hand and held me in his other one.

"He was in pain love. He was a strong man yes, but he just couldn't handle the weight of it anymore." I cried even more at his words.

"H-he should h-have came to me and t-talked to me about. I c-could have s-saved him." He pulled my head up with his hand and whiped away my tears.

"I know it hurts my dear, but please do not cry. I hate seeing you like this. He is in a better place now." I sobbed quietly.

"He was a d-demon Sebastian." Sebastian smiled a little. "Yes love, but demons prefer hell. It is our home. It is all we know."

This made me smile a little. "At least he is finally with mother, and not hurting anymore." I walked over to the gurney my father was laying on.

"You can rest now father. Tell mother I love her. And know I do not hate you for this. I will miss both of you dearly." The Undertaker walked over to me and hugged me.

"I am truly sorry dearie. Your father was a great man. He just had his own demons to deal with, and they told him unspeakable things. But now he is with Edith." Even during the worse times he still makes jokes, but they lighten me up.

I returned his hug. "Thank you, that means a lot. I guess you really are my father figure now."

"Of course love. Now, you need to get some rest. All this stress isn't good for the baby." He pulled apart and pushed my father out of the room.

I turned to Sebastian. He walked over and scooped me up bridal style. "Let's get you to bed love." I nodded and laid my head on his chest.

We got to my room and he helped me out of my clothes and into my night gown. He laid me on the bed and placed a kiss on my forehead.

"I love you so much. I will always be here for you. Do not ever doubt that." I returned his kiss.

He leaned down and pressed his cold lips to my swollen stomach. "I love you as well. I will always take care of you and your mother. Do not ever doubt that either"

I pulled Sebastian up and planted a passionate kiss on his lips. I pulled apart and a tear rolled down my cheek.

He whiped it away with his thumb. "You are far too beautiful to cry love."

He walked over to his side of the bed and stripped down to his boxer shorts. He folded his clothes very neatly and laid them down. He crawled into bed and pulled me over to him.

He pulled the covers over us and kissed my forehead once more. "Goodnight my queen. I shall see you in the morning."

I kissed his lips softly. "Goodnight my king."

I don't think I have ever seen Sebastian sleep, but as soon as he blew out the candle he was asleep. I followed soon after.

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Goodnight father, I will see you and mother some day. Remember that, and tell mother. I love both of you dearly.'