My Prison Called Life (Bio 1)

Chapter 3: Becoming my own person

Todd tried to win me over by trying to buy me things he thought I liked. But you couldn't do that. I don't care what anyone buys me. You can't buy my affection. You have to earn it. So when he realized that he stopped. But soon I saw things I didn't like. Like when he would get high by stealing my moms meds I knew I was right about him.

My mom has a habit of dating people she thinks she can fix. But it never went well. I would watch my mom date assholes who would be drunks or drug addicts. She thought she could make them stop all of that. So we had to endure the abuse sometimes. It sucked my mom was changing more and more each day. 

It came to the point she would throw us out of the house. If we didn't do anything she wanted us to do fast enough. How she would say that she wished she never had us. Imagine hearing your own mother saying that to you. Is the most horrible thing a kid could hear from a parent. It makes them think that if their real family doesn't want them who does? 

Even when I thought I had someone I would lose them. Like my grandma Osborn died when I was thirteen. She died in her sleep. She was the only one who really loved me. So when she passed away I broke down and cried. It was during the hurricane season when she passed away. I wanted to go to her funeral but my mom wouldn't let me. 

I got so mad that I threw a fit and told her off. She said that she didn't want to deal with my dad. But this was my grandma we were talking about. I only got to know her for three years and she just passed away. I wanted to pay my respects. But mom said no. She promised we would visit her grave one day. Which we never did she lied about that part.......... 

So I felt even more alone more than ever. So we spent the night at one of my moms friends house. Because our power got knocked out during the hurricane. So as I was trying to sleep. I felt my foot start to itch. I scratched it. I was about to put my foot back down when I felt someone starting to raise their hand against my leg. I was only thirteen and this older guy tried hitting on me........ Can you believe that?

Sometimes I wonder how the hell I stayed alive on going through the shit I had to go through. But I guess it's because I'm really stubborn? I don't even know. So anyways I met this one chick in my second year of middle school. When I first met her I got that bad feeling again. But I brushed it off and made friends with her. 

We would hang out together her name is Ladonna. She was kind of a bad influence on me you would say. But I didn't stop being her friend because she needed one. I could tell because of all that she told me about herself. So one day she taught me how to steal manga books. I know I shouldn't have done that but I was a stupid kid back then. Plus my mom never gave me an allowance. 

She even wouldn't let me get a job. She said education came first. So I didn't know how else to get my hands on manga books. So I thought that was the only way. I probably stole over a 1,000 dollars worth of manga books. Because I had over 200 and something. But I loved them all. I even stole for friends. Though they didn't know I did. 

I would say that I had a job that I would get paid $50 bucks once a week. They said I was lucky. Even my mother bought the lie. Finally one day I almost got caught stealing this one. Anime series called spiral. I forgot to take off something. That would stop the alarm from going off. So when I went through it went off. 

I got scared but they didn't find anything so I was allowed to go. But because that happened. I stopped doing that. I never did that again. Even when I was attempted to do it again. My mom found out that I wasn't working and forbid me to hang out with Ladonna for a bit. But finally a few months later she let me hang out with her again. 

*A year later* 

Finally I was going to start my first year of high school and I was nervous. I was fifteen back then. I thought I was going to get bullied a lot. I did get bullied some but it wasn't that bad. But I'm not going to go into much detail on it. Because I already wrote it in my ways to stop bullying story. So this one is just going to be about things I didn't talk about. In the ways to stop bullying story. 

Pretty soon I got the nickname mama bear. Because I was really protective of a lot of my friends. My friends were really weird but I loved them all so much. Even my best friend Tina was in the same school as me. I met her in my second year of middle school. We would hang out a lot. I had some of my old friends there. Along with some new friends. 

I didn't see Ladonna because she was still a middle schooler. I wouldn't see her till my second year of high school. I didn't date much either. I don't remember much of my first year of high school. So I'm just going to skip it and go to my second year of high school. Now that was a year that made quite an impact in my life that's for sure.

Ladonna finally came to my school and her and I didn't hang out much. But on my seventeenth birthday all of that was going to change. So my birthday is December 30th I was born in 1990, well since my birthday was during winter break. Some of my friends couldn't make it. But on my seventeenth birthday. All the friends I invited came. 

I was having so much fun and I was laughing and having a great time. Ladonna was jealous her birthday was a month before mines. No one came to her birthday except me. I thought she had a good time with me. Because I would try my hardest to make her smile and have a good time. But it wasn't enough for her. 

So she decided to ruin my birthday. When I was going to go and get my friends for the birthday cake. I over heard her talking shit about me. She told everyone I was a slut and a whore. Which wasn't true I never even had sex. So after everyone sang happy birthday. I got really mad. I normally don't get mad it's rare for me to be really pissed off. But I couldn't keep it in anymore. 

So I went off on her in front of everyone. No one said anything while I was going off. I said that I couldn't take her shit anymore that I didn't want anything to do with her. That I was done with her shit and if I ever saw her again I would beat the shit out of her. As I was saying all of this to her my face got really red. I started to cry too.

Whenever I get really mad I would cry and my face would get all red from yelling. My mom was laughing and so were my friends they have never seen me go off like that. So finally after I threw her out I went into my room and started to cry. My friends tried to cheer me up and before long it worked. We ended up playing games and having fun. 

We even played strip jenga I was seventeen so what do you expect? So I ended up having a good party after all. But after that day I never talked to Ladonna again. I'm glad to have her out of my life I got tired of her making fun of the way I dressed and how I acted. I can't help that I'm a nice person and that I don't want to wear tight clothes like she does.