Never Too Late

Chapter 5.1: Uncertainty

                The next day, the University was closed, but I headed for the boys' dorm where Ken was staying. I've only been to his place twice, and it was for sex. I never really made an actual visit before. Anyway, the third room on the second floor was his room, and I walked there and knocked. It took a while before someone opened the door. I thought he and his roommate could've cleared out for the holiday, but would Ken really just leave and not tell me?

"Hey?" his roommate opened the door, he wondered for a second who I was since he had seen me before. "You're that girl he used to sleep with, right?"

"That's... right." I pretended like I wasn't his girlfriend since the roommate might hide some information if I introduced myself. "I was looking for Ken. He said he wanted some sex."

"Oh, he went out with some chick about an hour ago." He laughed. "Boy, that Ken... He really can't schedule his girls, right?"

"So, he's been sleeping with other girls for the past month or so?"

"Yeah, he's been sleeping with that same girl for like three months now." He said. "I forgot her name, but I think she mentioned that she works with him."

"Works with him? Would that be Natasha?"

"Oh, that! Yes! Natasha's the name! I forgot." He chuckled. "Yeah, that girl. She's pretty hot, you know. I thought she was Ken's girlfriend now, but you came here, so maybe he's still not up for serious relationships... sounds like something Ken would do."

"Oh, that's too bad. I came all this way, and he's not here." Somehow, I was a little disappointed and hurt, not so much on the hurt part but more on the disappointed part. It was hardly a surprise, but I was still hoping that he could take me seriously, so I could also take him seriously, but it turns out that we couldn't take each other seriously. Our relationship was such a joke. Who was I fooling? I only wanted to have him as a boyfriend just so I could rub it in Alex's face and maybe, just maybe, I could move on.

"Well, if you feel that bad, I'll do it with you." He suggested, and I laughed.

"No, thanks. I'm not really in the mood anyway. It's so early. I'm more of a night sex player." I replied.

"That's cool, me too. Hey, maybe you could give me a call later if you're into night shifts." He was starting to flirt with me, but I truly wasn't in the mood.

"I've got stuff to do." I said, and he probably already got that I wasn't interested, not that I cared. "Hey, can you do me a solid and not tell Ken I went here? I don't want to look stupid."

"Sure."

"Thanks." I walked away.

There was I, lying on the living room couch, bummed about the whole Ken thing... just bummed, not depressed or anything. It felt like I needed to break up with him, but somehow, I didn't want to look all single around Alex. It just sucked. I kept checking my phone over and over again for texts or missed calls from Ken, but he didn't return a single call or replied to a single text. He was probably doing it with Natasha.

"Hey..." Harvey walked into the living room and approached me. "What are you doing there?"

"Nah..." I sighed. "Just chilling, turning my frustration into passion, thinking of a way to do something about the shit that's going on."

"That still left me with questions." He chuckled as he sat on the couch, and I went up to sit. "What's going on? Does this have anything to do with Alex?"

"No." I laughed. "Well, maybe... but no."

"Okay? Then, what's going on?"

"Well..." I sighed again. "Ken and I are a bit on the ropes."

"Yeah, he barely comes here anymore." He added. "You lost communication, huh?"

"Not exactly." I chuckled. "He was sleeping with other girls."

"Oh God, I thought he wanted to be serious."

"You know, Harvey..." I started to laugh. "The thing is I didn't want a serious thing either. Maybe this is my fault. Maybe I didn't take him seriously, that's why he didn't take me seriously either."

"Are you kidding me? You always helped with all these survey stuff and the banner stuff and the article stuff. I always thought you were intimate about him."

"I was trying to make myself intimate. I told myself maybe I could move on." I replied. "But I guess I didn't really want him to be serious."

"Really? You asked him if he could be your boyfriend, and he never really struck me as a boyfriend material. He's more of a bed material." He said.

"Yeah, I did but not because I wanted to be serious."

"It's for Alex, isn't it?" he smiled. "You're still not over him. You didn't want to look like you were pining which is why you wanted a boyfriend."

"I guess." I nodded. "I thought having Ken around would help. When I couldn't resist my urge around Alex, I called Ken, and we had sex just so I could get over this weird sexual energy I've been feeling for Alex."

"Really?" he laughed. "I didn't think you were so turned on by Alex all this time!"

"I was." I smiled. "Every time he got out the shower, I could feel the heat from my pants going out. And every time he drove me home, I was barely able to resist the urge to grapple and kiss him. Maybe I just lost the urge when he started dating Janine. Seeing him move on maybe killed it for me."

"You know, Liyah..." he said. "He doesn't really like Janine. He just appreciates her."

"Did he tell you that?"

"Yeah, we have guy talk from time to time." He smiled. "You and Laura can't be the only ones to be best friends here, you know. Maybe you could get back together with him. It's why he came back and lived with us in the loft, right?"

"He told me that, but I brushed him off because I was with Ken."

"Well, you have a reason to break up with Ken now!" he exclaimed. "Go be with Alex!"

"No, he has a girlfriend." I said. "It doesn't matter if he doesn't like her. I can't get Alex to break up with Janine just because I want them to. I can't do that to Janine."

"Aw, you're so nice, Liyah. Always putting others' feelings before your own." He laughed.

"I guess I'll just have to wait it out." I smiled.

"Not to worry, Liyah." He chuckled and held my shoulder. "If there's anything I've learned from you, the Legendary Liyah Loveworth, it's that it's never too late to make things right."

"Thanks." I laughed as he stood from the couch.

"Hey, before this conversation ends, I was hoping you could do something for me this Christmas break. You're going home for the holiday and to visit Sharon, right?" he asked.

"Yeah. Why?"

"Can you go with me? I was planning on visiting Winnie." He said, and I was a bit shocked.

"Winnie? Why?"

"It's not that I have any leftover feelings for her." He chuckled. "I just wanted to get some closure with the whole sex in the closet thing."

"Oh..." I reacted. "Sure, if that'll help."

"Okay... Thanks!" he gave me a thumbs up and walked away.