Crash - Johnyong

Ending

Context: Shit happens. Because of all their interactions, and the way Johnny talks about him, Taeyong (and everyone else) thinks Johnny has a crush on Ten. This takes place right before Empathy.

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Taeyong's P.O.V:

The studio was pretty much empty except for me and my stuff. Not surprised, it was only 5:37 AM. The world was still asleep.

To be honest, I just wanted to use practicing as an excuse to escape the dorm. Lately, all that's been going on with Johnny's crush and my own feelings about that have been stressing me out like crazy. I couldn't stay there worrying, crying. I had to get myself busy to get my mind off of it. And, to be fair, coming here was in my better interest. There were 4 different songs I had to memorize for our upcoming album. It was a lot, but nothing I couldn't handle. I was doing pretty well with all of them, but brushing up on it wouldn't hurt. Right?

I was wrong...

I was rehearsing 'Boss'. I'd put our practice up on the TV and followed along to every move. Every so often, I'd pause to watch myself dance in the mirror. I would try to see how I looked and what I should be correcting. If I was too tight in my movements, I'd loosen up. If I didn't look exactly like the video, I'd rewatch the same part over and over until I got it right. I was so focused that I didn't even hear the door open.

"Didn't think anyone would be here this early." A very familiar voice said and startled me. I turned to face its direction, and I was met with the eyes of Johnny Seo himself.
"Me neither, but you're here too" I replied, trying to act like I didn't almost piss my pants out of fear.
"Good point"

Oh god, did I fuck up?! I didn't mean to. He hates me now, doesn't he?

"Sorry," I apologized softly.
"For?" He asked.
"Being rude."
"When?"
"Just now."
"That wasn't rude. At least, I didn't think that."
"Oh." My face flushed red. I can't believe I apologized for doing nothing wrong. I heard him say something under his breath, but I couldn't tell what it was.

I watched as he put his stuff down and took a seat on the floor.

"Why are you here this early anyway?" He asked, taking a sip of his coffee.

" I wanted to practice. Simple as." I half-truthed. "You?"
"Just wanted some time away from the dorm. Mark tends to uh...fart..in his sleep. I didn't wanna be in there any longer than I had to."

I laughed a bit at that. "How unfortunate."

I turned back to continue practicing, but I couldn't help but notice how his eyes were glued to me. I couldn't tell if my heart was beating so fast because I was dancing or if it was because I knew he was watching.  I tried to ignore it, but after a while, I just couldn't.

"Are you gonna watch me the entire time?" I laughed nervously.
"I didn't mean to. You're just..." he thought about what to say next. "I can't take my eyes off you, really." My heart just kept freaking out.

"If it helps you feel less self-conscious, I can look away."
"N-no. It's fine. I just wasn't expecting you to look at me."

I went back to practicing.

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After what felt like forever, I decided to take a break. I walked over to take a seat next to Johnny.

"You're so cool, Yongie." He said as I sat down.

I smiled at him. "Thanks, hyung. I've always thought you were cooler, though."

"Yeah, right." He playfully pushed me a bit.

"I'm serious! You used to train with EXO members. I remember seeing you in the practice rooms with them working so hard and I used to think that was the coolest thing in the world. You had so much potential. You were already such a great dancer. To be honest, I was kind of intimidated." I took a sip from my water bottle.

"Yeah, and my looks back then didn't really help my case with that either." He joked.

"Yeah." I laughed. "But then I met you, and you were so not what I thought you'd be like."
"Funny, cuz you were exactly how I hoped you were." We smiled at each other.

A comfortable silence fell over us. And even though I had stopped dancing, my heart kept racing as if I was running a marathon. That was until the thought of him and Ten flashed into my mind and started lowering it. Thinking back on the past sort of just made me feel bad about the present. It made me mourn what could've been. What I wish was.

My face fell and I turned to face the floor. I hoped he wouldn't notice, but of course he did. That's how he always was.

"What's wrong?" He asked, seemingly concerned.

"It's nothing, don't worry about it." I forced a smile and tried to get him to brush it off.

"Yong, you know you can tell me anything."
"Something's just been on my mind recently." I pushed my hair back.
"Oh. What is it?"
"It's stupid. AND it's embarrassing. We don't need to talk about it."
"I won't judge."

Maybe I couldn't get what I wanted, but I'd at least get closure.

"You promise?"
"I promise."

I sighed. "Fine."

I turned to face him, but I avoided eye contact.

"I, um. I like you..." I struggled to say. "Like, like you-like you. Liked you for a few years now, actually." Johnny was silent.

"Ever since the first time we met, I felt a connection between us two. I tell you pretty much everything almost all the time. You know everything about me. You even know about the struggles I don't like admitting I have." I looked down at my wrists. "Just a shame that you like Ten."

"What? Taeyong, I-"

"You know, it's funny. I know you like Ten. I see the way you look at him. How you talk to him, how you talk to US about him. But despite that, for some reason I'll still keep liking you anyways. And after the first year, I had to admit to myself that I was actually in love with you. Which makes seeing this play out so much harder." I felt a tear roll down my cheek, but I kept going.

"I love everything about you, Johnny. I love your big, brown eyes that are always full of joy. I love your smile and your laugh. I love how every time I smell coffee, I think of you. I love how we're comfortable with each other and holding our secrets. I love how you never fail to put me in a good mood. And I especially love how you care for me and the others. I'm surprised that I waited this long to tell you this. I'm surprised I'm even telling you this right now. I should have told you sooner. Then maybe I'd actually have a chance."

At this point, I was full on crying crying. I've cried in front of him so many times, but this time I felt really stupid about it. Maybe it was pointless to cry and be upset over this. It wasn't gonna happen anyways.

"Taeyong," Johnny said. "Look at me."

I lifted my head from my knees.

"I don't have a crush on Ten. I like you."

"What?"

"Ah, I'm such an idiot." he said as he rubbed his face. "All those things about Ten. I didn't mean to come off that way. I was just trying to be nice to him. I like you too."

He scooched over and put his arm around me.

"I've liked you since the summer you let me stay at your house. I was just too dense to realize it until a whole year later." He laughed.

"You're very special to me, Taeyong. You always have been. And I'm sorry that I've made you feel like you were second place."

He lifted my chin and moved in closer.

"I'm in love with you, too."

He then softly pressed his lips on mine.

The end :D