The Cheeky Bitch (A 1D fanfic)

Not taking it well.

A/n: There will probably be no more of the "Cheeky ____" in the titles anymore, because cancer is no laughing matter.

Lexi's POV:

Did you ever have a feeling where the world stopped? A feeling that felt like time froze and it's only you in your little bubble? Not the type of feeling where you're with someone and they love you and when they kiss you time freezes. No, this is something different.

As soon as that sentence left the doctor's mouth everything froze. My eyes were going into tunnel vision and I couldn't concentrate on anything else but those words the doctor said. I didn't hear the conversation that Danielle and Eleanor were having with the doctor. It was just me in my little world.

Cancer. It was the type where you would hear about it all the time but you could never think it would happen to you. I didn't know how to process it, my body was in shock and so was I. I wasn't responsive.

"Ms. Campbell, I know this is a lot to take in but please undersand that there will be people here to help you-" He said but I cut him off.

"A lot to take in? Finding out your pregnant is alot to take in, this, this is a catastrophe. You do realize what you told me right. You just told me i'm going to die. And by you telling me that there are people out there to help me is just giving me a death wish." I said my eyes welling up with tears.

My knuckles were becoming white as they became fists. "How long do I have?" I asked barely audible looking at the ground.

"Ms. Campbell, please let me explain something-"

"How long do I have?" I asked sternly.

He sighed. "I'm not sure. It's not clear. I'm faxing over your results to your doctor in London as we speak." He said.

"I'm so sorr-" I cut him off again.

"I don't want your sympathy. I don't want anyone's sympathy. I just want facts. What type of cancer is it and how bad is it?"

He looked at Eleanor and Danielle who were crying now. I didin't even look at them because if I did I would break.

"With your blood results and with your symptoms, Ms. Campbell, the facts show you have Stage 4 bone marrow cancer." He said. We all sat in silence. "I'll let you have a moment. Dr. Phillips will call you with your results. Again, I'm sorry Ms. Campbell.

"Come on girls, let's go." I said to Dani and Eleanor.

Both girl said nothing. They followed me out of the doctor's office, into Steve's car and back to the hotel. When we got back the boys were at soundcheck. We were planning on meeting them at the concert.

"Um, okay, let's get ready." I said throwing my shoes on the floor and rummaging through my luggage.

"So that's it?" Eleanor asked making me turn around to face her. "We're not even going to talk about this?"

"Talk about what?" I said pulling out the perfect concert outfit.

"Talk about the news you got from the doctor." Danielle said.

"There's nothing to talk about.", I said, using every last bit of my will power to prevent myself from bursting into tears. 

"Lexi! Stop doing that!" Eleanor shouted. "Stop pretending like this isnt affecting you!"

"Please stop pretending like you're made of stone and let us in. Tell us how you feel." Danielle begged

I threw my outfit down on the floor. I was furious at this point.

"You want to know how I fell? Fine. I'm going to die! I've survived abuse, heartbreaks...LIFE...but this? This will be the end of Lexi Campell." I shouted making their expression softened but i didn't care.

"I'm going to die because I have stage 4 bone marrow cancer! I have done nothing my entire life. I'm a fucking failure and the way i'm being punished for sleeping around with guys is having to suffer through chemo treatments. I feel like jumping off a building because at least that will take me out of my misery."

The girls began to tear up and I could see the tears falling from Dani's eyes. I wasn't going to cry. I couldn't.

"And the thing that kills me most about this whole thing is the fact that in a year or so, if I get that long I will never see you two and the boys ever again. It's this family that changed me for the better and made be become a better person. But i'm being ripped away from you as we speak."

"Both you girls showed me how the power of a cocktail dress and a pair of stilettos can comepletly change a girl." I said giggling making them laugh as well. "But you also showed me how girls can be sweet and caring and actually look out for you."

"The boys became the family I've always wanted. Niall showed me what having a true best guy friend means and how important it is. Liam showed me how to care with all my heart and really mean it. Louis showed me how laughter will always make you feel better no matter how bad your day has been and Harry showed me how happy I can be and really mean it. Then there's Zayn." I said pausing.

I could feel the tears starting to form in my eyes but I didn't want them to fall over. I didn't want to cry because from now until the end that doesn't seem so far away, there will be lots of time for crying.

"Zayn showed me how being in love feels like." I said cracking at smile to myself. "There I said it!" I exclaimed. "I love Zayn. He showed me what having true feelings is like. Like when I have butterflies in my stomach when I see him. The sparkle in my eye that Harry realized I get when someone mentions his name. And the jealousy I feel when some bitch steals him from me. I'm in love with Zayn!" I screamed.

The girls smiled at me through their tears. They came to me and engulfed me in a hug. "You need to tell Zayn that you know." Ele mumbled into my shoulder.

I pulled away from the hug. "No, I'm not teling Zayn I love him and I'm not telling him I have cancer. Infact I'm not telling any of the boys I have cancer.'

"Lexi you have too. The boys have a right to know and they will be heart broken if you don't tell them." Danielle said.

"Look, I don't know where this whole cancer thing is going. I don't know how long I have left and how that road is going to go down so I don't want to tell them anything yet. Atleast not for a while, once everything is defined and I know i'll tell them."

"As for Zayn, I was kind of hoping not to tell him at all." I said biting my lip.

"WHAT?!" Both girls shreiked.

"When Zayn finds out I am now terminally ill he's going to do the one thing everyone does when they find out someone is going to die. Pity. He's going to pity me and want to date me. I don't want him to date me out of pity and out of the idea that he's the only guy i'll date ever. If he really wants me then he'll come for me without knowing i'm going to die."

"Stop saying that!" Danielle begged. "Stop saying you're going to die!"

"Why it's tr-"

"STOP!" Eleanor shouted. "Just please, don't"

I nodded.

"We need to get ready for the concert." Eleanor started looking for something to wear.

"Um, can you girls go without me? I'm coming down with a headache and I kinda want to rest with everything that happened today i-"

"Say no more." Dani said. "Don't even worry about it."

"Thanks, Tell the boys I was sick or something."

They relunctantly nodded. I changed into some JW boxers and a tanktop. The girls got ready into cute outfits and said goodbye to me before heading out the door. I crawled into my bed and snuggled up into the comforter.

It was then and there where I let everything out. I let every tear fall from my eyes until they were dry. I let every possible thought run through my mind untill they disappered. Yet, there was one thought that never left all night.

Zayn.