Find Me || Calum Hood ✓

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{Delilah}.

A silence lingered in the room for a few moments as I debated whether or not to speak. I could see the anger steaming from Calum and I knew that it was only a matter of time before he released some of it onto me.

I had half a mind to walk up to him and attempt to calm him down, but I knew that it wouldn't end well. I think he just needed a little more time to get his head around things, to come to terms with the fact that things weren't going to be easy for him anymore. I decided against moving over to him, hesitantly leaving the room, not even being able to make up my mind whether to close the door or not.

I wondered into the hallway feeling lonely and out of place. I looked around, hoping to see a familiar face, but there was none. I anxiously rubbed my arm, biting down on my lip as I began to walk timidly to the front entrance, clueless as the where I was going.

The morning air was cold on my skin, the sun hidden behind the grey clouds creating a depressing atmosphere. There were several benches resting by the walls of the hospital, waiting to be occupied, but I didn't make my way over to them. I felt the need to get away from this place and I didn't have a care where that was, I just needed some space.

Driving down the busy roads, I turned the radio on, the song Hey There Delilah playing softly through the speakers; an old favourite of mine, yet I didn't have the heart to sing along or even hum softly to the tune. Doesn't that say a lot about someone?- when their favourite song comes on and they're not even able to sing along.

After an hour or so later, I pulled up near a quiet lonesome park. There were paint chipped slides and rusted bars, and the trees whistled in the wind. I parked my car, then stepped out and walked over to sit on the bonnet. I pulled my knees up to my chest, holding myself tightly to keep warm as I stared out emptily at the views before me.

I was now on the outskirts of town. My phone was stitched off and I was alone; no one could bother me for a while. I used this time just to sit in silence, to forget about who I was and what my life had become even just for a few minutes. I didn't have to think anymore. I was finally able to breathe.

My hair felt greasy and my clothes were starting to smell, as well as that, I was beginning to lose touch of the outside world. I knew it wasn't healthy, to let this completely take over my world, but it was a lot harder to focus on anything else, or even want to for that matter.

It was stupid of me, I admit, to think that everything would just fall back into place the moment Calum woke up. But I wanted that, and for a while, it was the only thing keeping me sane; to believe that it would happen, that is.

Though things couldn't be further from stable. It was like he woke up a completely different person, although in some perspectives, he kind of did. I'm not just talking about the everyday things, like how he can no longer even stand up by himself, but, I guess just as a person, really.

I didn't even know where his mind is at, but one thing for sure was that he doesn't have a clue either. I prayed that he would find himself. I wanted that just as badly as I wanted him to wake up, but maybe God doesn't tend to all my prayers. We were lucky enough that he even made it this far.

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Guyyyysss, please keep up the comments :/

I'm v sad about 1D atm.

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