YouTube and Google continue to provide information, filling my eyes and ears with details of childhood sexual abuse. Cult ideology; sick, twisted thinking that warps the very fabric of humaness. Good people made devils, children hurt as the hands of those meant to protect.
My mind will not forgive.
For years there was avoidance. The information was too sick and disturbed to recognize it was that close to these four walls. Then there was hope that if enough information comes to light the anger and confusion will dissapate. The ways the brain had been warped would make the disgust of behaviors manageable.
There is not enough information.
Critical thinking, excuses and lies. The feigning ignorance of personal desires when those distinct thoughts lead to behaviors screaming through soft touches. Now self blame and anger fill me for not realizing I was the center of the twisted merry go round.
Ricky knew what he was doing.
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