Oh, Hey

Chapter 4

Just a note from me, this chapter does include self harm. I do not promote it, it Just appears in the chapter. Thanks.

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Cas's POV:

I locked my self in the bathroom. My hands shook with a nervous thought. I stared at myself in the mirror for another minute. Come on. Get it over with. My brain thought.

I slowly pulled a blade from my hoodie pocket. The sharp metal layed in my hand. The Light reflected off it in such a beautiful way. My heart pounded in my chest as I picked up the blade, and steadied my hand.

I ran the metal across my wrist. There was almost no pain. Nothing compared to my emotional pain. I looked back down at my wrist. Small droplets of blood fell off my wrist and into the sink. I felt a tear drop as I looked at what I had done. Why do I do this?........ Yeah, I'm a fuck up... Nobody cares anyway... I thought as a few more tears fell from my eyes.

I stopped the bleeding and gazed at my new scars. The skin around it was red and puffy. I looked back at myself in the mirror. My face was a mess. I was a mess. My life is a mess.

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Dean's POV:

I said bye to Sam then walked into school. I shoved my ear buds in and turned some music on. I put my head down. That was the best way to not be noticed. I kept walking along the stuffy hallway.

When I got to my locker, I finally looked up. A pair of ice blue eyes were staring at me from afar. The owner of the beautiful eyes quickly turned his head. He had gorgeous ruffled black hair too. Cas. I thought as I walked up to him.

"Hey." I said leaning up against the wall beside Cas.

"Hey what's up." Cas asked.

"Nothing... Y-you should sit with me at our lunch table. today... Or whatever." I said turning my head and looking down. He was going to say no. Turn me down.

"Uh... Yeah, sure. I'd Love to." Cas said with a small smile. I smiled back at him. My eyes gleamed.

"Well, great. I'll see you at lunch then." I said.

"See you then." Cas said, his smile still stuck on his face.

I headed off to class. That put me in a good mood.

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I sat down in social studies. I pulled out a notebook and pen to take notes with. My mind started to wander...

Cas... He's... Great. Beautiful blue eyes, glimmering black hair, a thin and lanky body... Nothing could be better... I thought.

"Mr. Winchester?" Mr. Sutely asked.

"Uh... Yes Mr. Sutely?" I responded.

"Dean... Please tell me what I just said." Mr. Sutely requested.

"Um.... I-I dont really know, sir... " I said looking down at the floor. Mr. Sutely gave a small chuckle.

"Please pay attention, Mr. Winchester."

But that was almost impossible when I was thinking about Cas.