Fucking gilinsky

s i x t e e n

I open my eyes and look around. The events of last night flood through my mind. I was finally not a virgin. It felt good. I felt almost new. I get up without waking up Nate and head to the bathroom. I stare at my reflection, eyeing every little bite mark there was on my bare body. What I did with him felt amazing but there was no connection. It was just sex.

I quickly walk out and throw on my cloths. I enjoyed spending time with him but right now I wanted to be alone.

I felt a little guilty taking advantage of Nate like this. It made me no better than Sam.

I grab my keys and head to my car. I feel guilty for not waiting. I could of just waited. What is he going to think when he wakes up alone? I hope he doesn't think bad of me. I can't say I blame him if he did. Everything was messed up for me. I don't understand anything. There were a million of things swirling in my head but nothing meant anything. It was a dead end. I wasn't sure of anything. I was before. Before all of this. But now I just don't know. There was no special person for me. There were just people. Why didn't I see that before?

I finally arrive at my house and hop out my car. I slowly walk inside.

I crawl into bed and hope the best of sleep will help my days get better.

But I knew it wouldn't.

(a/n: yes ik this is short but like three more are posted too so i guess it makes up for it.)

- bri