Fucking gilinsky

f o u r t e e n

I knocked on the door lightly, waiting patiently for someone to answer. It was late but I didn't care. I didn't care about anything anymore. I was done. I just wanted my answers and I would be done.

I had a huge headache from crying hard, I was cold, and I was tired.

The door finally opens and Nate appears with messy hair.

"Hey? What are you doing here-" I barge in and sit myself on the couch.

"Look I know we don't talk but I know your one of Sams closest friends and I need answers." I take a deep breath and let the world fall beneath me. "Who is Madison?"

"So you found out." He runs his hand through his hair and I try not to get even more upset about the fact that everyone knew and no one told me. "She's a girl Sam hooks up with if he gets nothing with you. I told him it was fucked up and he shouldn't do that but he didn't listen. He was so sure he wouldn't get caught. It suppose to be a one time thing but it ended up happening five more times."

I close my eyes and fight back the tears that were on the verge of coming.

I need to be strong.

"Please don't cry. I'm sure he didn't mean it."

"No! He did, otherwise he wouldn't have done it in the first place. I just-I just can't believe he lied to me during this whole time and I was so stupid not to see it."

I sob finally breaking. I thought he loved me. I thought he cared about me. Nothing hurt more learning that the one you loved and thought loved you back, was just playing a game on you. I thought I would never be the one to go through this. I thought I would be smart enough to see the clues. But I simply didn't.

What was so wrong with me that he couldn't wait?

Nate pulls me closer to him and hugs me tightly. I hug him back and grasp on to his shirt.

"I'm sorry. I know we don't talk but I-"

"Shh", he cuts me off. "Don't worry about it." He lifts my chin up and wipes away my tears that were running down my cheek.

Silence takes over for a moment as we looked at each other. He slowly runs his thumb across my cheek, still looking tensely at me. He wasn't bad looking. He was actually really good looking. He wasn't a bad guy either. But then again I thought the same about Sam. I found myself leaning in and doing the most unspeakable thing because I wanted to wash away the pain. Forget about everything. I kissed him.

(a/n: it's so fucking amusing to see so many ppl r hypocrites. so quick to judge me bc i don't like Madison but yet there is some celebrity that u know damn well u don't like and be talking shit about them. everyone does it. if u don't like what i say don't read my book. i swear if i could bust their face i would. what do u honestly expect for ur comments to change my opinion bc it's not all its going to do it cause trouble. anyways my babes, i luv u guys so much. u guys r just so fucking rad and the boss. i got to my goal and it wouldn't have got there without you guys so a huge thank u to u bc i didn't just make it WE made it ❤ if u like then vote and share with the fam and add to your library.

- bri