Different || Troyler AU

C H A P T E R : NINETEEN

•• Regretful Angel ••

TROYES POV::::::::::

A little over three hours later, Tyler, I, and the boys where all tatted up, which consisted of a lot of trembling lips from me and extremely hard hand holding from Tyler, the other boys didn't react at all, not surprising due to how many they have.

I got a lip piercing as well which surprisingly didn't hurt at all.

We where now on our way to a take away place called 'Burger Wings' which I had never been too since I don't eat and, well, never had money.

When was the last time I had eaten?

I actually don't remember.

That's good.

I do remember a few days ago when I was walking in between classes when I suddenly got extremely dizzy and almost passed out. Maybe that's a sign that I should eat.

I'll eat a few chips since all I've been living off is soda and water the last few months.

But I knew when to stop fasting, I knew when I had to eat.

I'm my day dreaming I hadn't realised that we had made it to burger wings and Tyler was whispering in my ear to get off him so we could get out.

I quickly jumped out and off him, cause if I stayed any longer I would crush him for sure.

He smiled at me with a hint of something in his eyes that looked like confusion...?

I smiled reassuringly and grabbed his hand in mine, I admired how well his hand fit with mine before following the other into the small take away place that was almost empty.

As soon as we entered a few people turned to look at the door out of curiosity, their eyes widened and if I didn't have black wings I would have thought that it was because of the tattoos, but because of my wings I knew they were surprised because of me.

I looked away from their judgemental glares and over to the things with all the different things they serve on it.

I felt Tyler squeeze my hand and I smiled at him, to be honest I was used to it by now.

I caught sight of myself in the window to the side of me and looked at my new tattoo, it was printed onto my neck perfectly with a slight tinge of red surrounding it while a small layer of cling wrap was on top of it.

Why did they even put cling wrap over it anyways?

I shrugged.

I looked over to the boys who where all looking at the boards with different foods all printed out on them, eyes sparkling and mouths open, although Michael was basically drooling.

I chuckled at their expressions as they all said what they wanted, Michael asking for a double cheese burger and fries, Luke ordered a chicken burger and medium fries while Calum and Ashton ordered cheese burgers and small fries.

Tyler ordered a chicken burger and small fries before they all looked at me.

"What do you want Troye-Boy." Luke asked.

"Uh, small fries thanks, I'm not that hungry." I smiled at them and they shrugged before Luke payed saying that 'it was our reward for getting out first tattoos' whatever that means.

I felt Tyler looking at me weirdly as me and him went to find a table, which wasn't hard considering barely anybody was there.

We sat down, me near the window as he sat next to me.

"Are you sure you're not hungry? I'm sure you haven't eaten all day, you must be hungry." Tyler said as his blue green eyes bored into me.

"It's okay Tilly, I'm not hungry." I said giving him a fake reassuring smile and hoped that he would buy it, he gave me a suspicious look before he dropped it as the boys came back with our food. 

They all organised our food with who's was what and soon the boys where all chowing down while getting mustard, ketchup and mayo all over themselves.

Everyone but Tyler who took his time and actually wiped his damn mouth, the others looked like shit with sauces all over their faces.

Seriously, Calum had some tomato sauce in his eyebrow, his eyebrow!

I chuckled but soon realised that I actually had to eat something for the first time in a long time.

I gulped and took out a chip from its packet and stared at the empty calories that I could basically see over the deep friend piece of potato.

I nervously placed it in my mouth and started to chew, why was this so hard for me?

The salt danced around in my mouth and soon I swallowed it.

And the worst part about it?

I liked it.

And twenty minutes later, everyone had finished including me.

I could feel the food in my always empty stomach and I hated it.

I hated that I loved it.

I hated that what was meant to be a few chips turned into all of them being gone.

I hated that I could feel tears pooling behind my eyes but I knew I had to keep them in.

Because all my hard work to be somewhat thin had come crashing down in a cloud of smoke as I felt the chips in my stomach.

My stomach made a few noises that thankfully nobody else heard cause it wasn't used to having food in it.

And all I could hope was that I make it to the toilet in time.

The rest of the afternoon was a blur and I remember dropping Tyler off at his house and kissing him goodbye, and I remember getting home.

I remember walking through the door almost in tears as Ashton ran to the bathroom and I had to wait.

He took forever and I was in my room pacing back and forth while tugging at my hair trying my hardest not to cry.

I could feel my stomach tightening and I was desperate to release the food in my stomach.

I paced back and forth before I heard the bathroom door click and I pushed past Ashton to get in and lock the door.

And I remember turning on the shower so nobody could hear me gag.

And I remember emptying the contents of my stomach without even putting a finger down my throat this time.

And that scared me.

It scared me so much.

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New chapter! I feel sad cause something happened in my life but whatever.

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