Distance

19. Girls like you

After dinner we sat around talking while Christmas music was playing in the background, but we were mostly on our phones and being the anti-social family we are, in fact I was looking through my instagram when on my feed the selfie of mikey and I was there, 'merry Christmas from us!! Can you guess what im dying my hair next ;))' mikey captioned "aww loving the post mikey" I whispered to Michael "thanks i'm loving the girl in the post" mikey winked as I playfully hit his arm "do you want one on mine now mikey?" "sure" he replied as I held my phone up "guys get in!!" I signalled to Aubrey, Andrew, Darryl and my mum as they all piled in behind mikey and I, "smilee" I said taking the picture "aww family photos" I smiled as I looked at the picture and posted it on instagram, captioning it 'Merry xmas!! First official Christmas all together #CliffordChristmasspecial' also tagging Andrew, mikey and Aubrey in it "aww I love it!!" Aubrey squealed obviously seeing it on her instagram.
After posting that on instagram I saw I had a message and I could already tell it was from Luke,
Luke-Lottie! Im so happy you replied and didn't block me or ignore me :)) yea I was a bit drunk when I sent that last message but even though I was I meant what I said and I had to get drunk to actually send the message, ik im a wimp but what you gonna do? Hope your having a good Christmas and everything and I really really regretted what I did to you, you really didn't deserve any of it and it's taken me 3 years to realise that which is so bad you don't even know, also im not with Amelia anymore it ended like 2 years ago because I eventually saw what a slutty slut slut she was and I don't even know why I got with her in the first place ahah funny what you do in your life eh? Anyway you looked really good in that picture, Michaels a lucky guy.. X

Me- wait you think me and Michael are a thing? No no no we were going to but I had to tell him that I love someone else and it would've been unfair but anyway that's another story. It's fine you don't have to explain what you did, im cool with whatever it's your life..Enjoy your break Luke x
"who you textin?" mikey said trying to take a peek "no one" I replied, I've hurt mikey once today I really don't want to hurt him twice today "ohhh really" mikeys sarcasm visibly coming through "yepp" "well then you wouldn't mind me doing this.." mikey said grabbing my phone from my hand and now holding it to his face while I was trying to grab it back "Michael Gordon Clifford give me my fucking phone back!" I shouted only loud enough for mikey to hear "oop language missy!!" he laughed, while I just huffed. "Luke?" mikey said while giving an unreadable look "well he text me first... If you read.. Up" I kept looking down so ashamed of myself "hey it's fine he just wants to apologize and I guess your not over him" mikey whispered looking deep into my eyes "no, I've been over him for a while but when he sent that it made some of those feelings come back, im just a bit down that I let go what I could've had with you go because of my feelings for him and your such a good guy Michael" I finished putting one hand on his  face and stroking it softly "it's fine" he said softly "but tonight you have to help me change my hair" he winked making me laugh "I definitely will mikey" I smile widely catching a glimpse of mikeys big grin which made my Christmas.

"Okay mikey, your hair is now red for christmas" I smiled looking at mikeys dry, red, hair that was also quite fluffy since I used the hairdryer "thank you, just like Lou used to if not better" mikey winked "that'll be £20 for your colour and dry sir" I joked "oh really? Because you forgot that I still have your phone, so if I give it you back lets call it even" mike smirked "fine but next time I'll getcha" I giggle "also I found this in my pocket, it's only fair to Christmas tradition that we use it" mikey smirked yet again holding up mistletoe above our heads "yea well since it's Christmas tradition I guess we'll have to" I replied smirking widely, even though I said to mikey I can't be with him due to my 'feelings' for Luke, I can't resist Michaels soft touch "yea thats how the cookie crumbles sweetheart" mikey devilishly smirked inches away from our lips connecting "are you just gonna stand there muttering sweet nothings or are we gonna kiss Clifford?" I asked impatiently "feist-" he didnt have time before I grabbed his collar and pulled him into be connecting our lips in sweet harmony.. I broke away first to catch my breath from the now very heated kiss "okay.. I know I said I loved Luke and feelings don't change quickly but I want you michael" I whispered with our foreheads touching, and his new red hair almost dripping with sweat "I want you too Lottie but I don't want to be your second choice" he sighed sitting upright as I copied his actions "I've been thinking since this morning mikey, I know such a great amount of time but im living in the past with the whole Luke thing," I grabbed mikeys face in my palms "and you Michael Gordon Clifford are my present and I can certainly see you in my future.. If you'll have me? And Im going to guarantee you are no second option to anyone babe" and with that mikey had me pinned to the bed with pure lust in his eyes and already sloppily kissing down my jawline "after that baby, i'm going to make you feel so good"

-
Last night was amazing, Michael was amazing and I have the many marks along my neck and collar bones to prove it.
At this minute im lay facing mikey tracing his jawline and going up to his perfectly pointed fringe which is still a bit sweaty from last night, his arm is around my bare waist while mine are around his neck and my eyes gazing at his perfectly sculpted face, any thought of Luke is now gone and all i'm crazy for is mikey, I don't even think I loved Luke yesterday I just convinced myself that I was because I thought there would be chance of us rekindling our romance but he ruined that and now im quite past that..
Last night I didn't lose my virginity, I've slept with a few men but nothing felt as good as last night did and at the moment i'm smiling to myself at how great last night felt. "morning baby" I whispered into mikeys ear as he turned in bed "mornin" his eyes fluttering open as I put my hand gently on his cheek and pecking his lips "last night was amazing" he grinned tightening his grip around my waist pulling me into his chest "it did indeed and I meant what I said" I replied "oh you mean 'yes mikey yes you're so good'" mikey grinned "no you idiot before we had sex, you're no ones second option and if you don't mind can we to on that date?" I proposed "omg lottie Tideswell are you proposing to me?!" "yes Michael Clifford I am" I smiled "Let me think.. How about HELL YEA" mikey basically shouted "great baby" I kissed him again "I really like it when you call me baby you know... Baby" mikey stated "yea baby" I joked.
*beep* a new message and you know what? I don't think its from Delilah
Luke- so I have a chance then? ;)) x
Me- Actually Luke I decided to take mikeys offer and go on a date with him since he is such a great guy and makes me feel loved. The man I thought I loved I didn't I was just living in the past but mikeys my present and future so no Luke you don't im afraid... But im sure you'll find a busty blonde along the way ;))
-Sent-
"im guessing that's Luke?" mikey awkwardly laughed "yea it is. But this time I told him to get stuffed because I have an amazing, funny, kind, lead guitarist from Sydney to keep me company" I replied as I saw mikeys pearls come on display in the form of the biggest smile I've ever seen "aww.. I hope you're talking about me" he joked "of course I am idiot, now cuddles?" "cuddles" he replied wrapping both arms around me gripping me tightly as we both drifted off again into a light sleep still with our legs tangled together, my head resting in the crook of his neck, occasionally peppering light kisses there and his chin on the top of my head. Now this is what I've been looking for. Mikey.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Sorry I dont really like writing smut but you can imagine what happened ;)
Sorry if its crappy but what ya gonna do?