Poems

My Worst Fear...(non rhyming poem)

***this was kinda hard for me to write cuz all of it true but this is truly my worst Fear so hope u like it ***

I hate to say this aloud

But I can no longer hide

The fear is consuming me

Everday I think About it

Everytime I want to cry

Will I be like her? I ask

They can't tell for sure

I pray to God night and day

Anything but that

Being like her is beyond anything

I grew up with her

Being with her I see what its like

I can't be like that

I know my mom can't help it

But it hurts the things she says

She doesn't think right

Her brain doesn't work right

Not like normal people

I start to act like her

More and more each day

Without relizing it

I would rather die then be like her

She has it bad but I will not

I swear upon my life I will not

She is my mother

And she has a Disease

She has Bipolar disorder and schizophernia

I feel so helpless when she crys or yells

Never knows which mood shes in

I don't like to be around her

I can't take it I haven't cried in months

But now my dad might have cancer (hes being tested to see)

And I might be alone with her

I dont want to be

She makes me her personal maid

But its been worse

When I was little she would yell

and threaten to send me away

I would say thats okay id love to be anywhere but here

We would both cry and ignore eachother

In the end we say sorry until

The next day it repeats itself

She is helpless on her own

I feel like I am the grown up

I take care of myself most of the time

Im just a young teen I shouldn't have to worry

About things like this

So now my wrost fear is revealed maybe

I can try to deal and heal.....

***srry if its not good its my first non rhyming poem***