you took it...i want it back!

chapter 12-breaking and entering and robbery

I felt like i couldnt breath. It felt like someone was choking me.

Images of being kicked and almost raped came to me.

I quickly took my hand back. I looked at Justin to see his smile starting to fade. I looked at Aaron and he looked at me confused as well.

I turned on my heel and ran up stairs. I wanted to get away. I need to be under me covers in my bed but reality hit me,my beds not here.

 I fell as I reached the top step and just stayed there I couldn't move. It felt like it was happening all over again. I felt scared,I needed someone to be there for me but i had no one,only Jess.

Shoes appeared in front of me after a few minutes of just sitting at the top of the stairs.

 I followed my gaze up until  found the faces that was looking back at me.

It was James and  Jordan.    SH*T!   I taught I stood up and pushed past them. No way was I staying there being looked at by my almost rapist and my biggest fan.

 I don't even know what I have done on him.

I made my way to my room,slammed the door shut and slid down the wall.

 I broke. Everything was to much.

Justin, my mom, living here,James,Jordan,life altogether.

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Over the course of the next few days I didn't leave my room.

If I had to eat Jess brought it to me. I couldn't face anyone while i was like this. I know nothing happened and I was not raped but it still didn't mean I didn't feel the pain of it.

It was Sunday.

My mom would be gone out today so I was going over there to get more of mine and Jess's belongings.

I got up,got showered,dressed,done my hair and make up(lightly) and eat breakfast before anyone woke up.

I drove Justin's car,just because I could.

I was his girlfriend after all. HA HA! I taught.

For a few hours maybe I would of liked to be Justin's REAL girlfriend but not now.

Not ever.

He hadn't even came to check to see if I was dead over the past few days and he wanted me to pretend to be his girlfriend.

BITE ME!

The bruises were gone now,I only had the cut under my eye which was healing.

As expected as I got to my moms house she wasn't there. She could of just left the house herself instead of making me and Jess leave.

I HADN'T EVEN DONE ANYTHING!

I grabed as mush as I could and put it in the car. I left as soon as I had enough stuff for me and Jess.

When i got back to the house James was comforting a crying Jess and Justin was pacing the kitchen.

 A squeal came from Jess when she saw me and she ran and jumped into my arms. "I missed you" she said still crying.

"I'm here,I didn't go anywhere" I said rubbing her back to comfort her.

She nodded her head.

"why don't you go get out of your pjs and ill get you something to eat" I said smiling at her. She nodded her head in  response and ran up the stairs.