Towers | (Ashton Irwin) / #wattys2016

Chapter 9

I can't believe, how fast two days pass by. Last thing I remember is, telling my bandmates, that we have a new manager and now, we are already finished with our practice with Adam who also attended, we signed a few papers and now we are officially 5 seconds of summer. It's crazy, now we have to prepare for our first gig. We also decided that we gonna put some videos of us, up on youtube, for more people to see and hopefully like us too.

Finally I'm home alone, just me in my bed, since yesterday we all slept in the same bad, so you can imagine how very comfortable it was. But what, we were so excited and we decided that we will be together till a few hours ago. Now we went home to get some rest, because our practice will have to be more energetic, you can say.

I'm still smiling all the time, but I can not help myself, I'm literally living my dream, to be in a band, this was my dream since I can remember. Gosh, I needed a little happiness in my life... you know after Kendall and stuff. But I'm also curious what happened to her in that audition, so as I make my way to my bed, I take her laptop with me.

I cover myself with a blanket and find a comfortable position, I'm in a half sitting position, or half lying position, that is now the question... I quickly open the folder Towers and scroll to the page where I left, two days ago... Let see.

**March 17, 2014

Hi! Kendall here, but you've already knew that haha and I got through the first round, but you've already knew that too...I mean I'm totally kidding, you didn't know that, now you know. So yeah, I did it, oh dear Spongebob, I can't believe it. I actually went there and sang. And they loved it...

Okay calm down Kendall, let me start at the beginning.**

I'm so excited for her, I can see her all happy and jumpy and giggly. When she was like that, I really admire her, I mean I did at all times, but happy Kendall, is my favorite kind. I can swear that her smile light up the whole world, and her dark brown eyes shine with such a power... Then she lets out a smile giggle and she thinks that is funny, so she starts to laugh. Then she always covers her face with her hands, but she doesn't know that, at that time, she takes my breath away, it's the little things she does... I mean I never imagined, that I could feel that way, but I do. Really Kendall makes my day, what day, my life, she give me this awesome opportunity to let me inside her little world and she is... was, I guess... apart of mine.

**So... here we go. First Josh and his jerk friends picked me up. There was only him, the only guy with two blonde and one red haired chick..and he tells me that I'm the only one for him, yeah bullshit, these girls were all over him and he didn't mind it at all, in front of me of course, so I thought that my day will only get worse. But something inside me, spoke up and I said to me, that I'm not going down, even if I have to beg the judges on my knees, but I'm not playing Josh's game anymore. I've had enough... I know i'm such a bad ass, go Kendall...

So when we come there, there was a lot and let me tell you, a lot of people, and here I go again, I started to panic inside, but outside I was looking all calm. I couldn't give them that satisfaction... but inside, I was screaming, crying, almost having a panic attack, because you know me, my self esteem is very low... the thoughts racing through my mind, how am I going to be good enough, I mean, out of all this people, me, there is no way.**

Yes, there is a way, Kendall, gosh, I'm so angry, because, you didn't believe in yourself not a bit... 

**So I was having a war in my mind, to do this or turn and run home, I was trying so hard, to look all calm and confident, and let me tell you this, I almost punch my legs, they weren't seem to move, I almost scream at how much I was convincing my legs to move, but luckily I won, ha here you have, my legs, take that.**

Oh my, she is so funny, Kendall, you are controlling your legs, so... Ah let's just leave this here.

**Okay, next step. I was in a group of a female solo singers, and I got my number... and here comes the most nerve wracking part... waiting... looking at people, who did already come out of "the room" some of them jumping, some of them crying. I think that I waited for about a hour or so. At this time, I couldn't even talk, I was going through the lyrics of a song, I think that my "best boyfriend" no I'm just joking, I can't even write that down haha, look at me, all grown up, not give a slight s**t about him, I'm kicking butts, I'm telling you, I am on fire haha... Josh and his friends talked about something and they were also saying some stuff, how great I will be and if I won't, they will be there to pick up the pieces, blablabla..

Finally it's my turn. I went in to the room and there were three judges two male and one female, they smiled as I walk in, so I smiled back and say hallo.

"What is you name and what are you going to sing?" a man on my right asked me politely.

"My name is Kendall and I will sing I will be by Christina Aguilera." I smiled nervously.

"When ever you are ready." lady said to me and I nodded.

This is it, was all that I could mentally say to myself at that point, I was shaking, I was just hoping that my voice won't crack. I took a deep breath and started to sing, at first few notes I was kinda shy, so I sang a little bit quiet, but as I was going further and further into a song, I was getting to my real voice, I sang with all my heart, I was feeling every word I sang. I think that the judges felt it to,because they were all tearing up. Before I knew it, the song was over and the judges all stand up and clapped, they said that, I'm of course, going to the next round and some more compliments, but I don't brag,you know. I thank them and walk out...

I step out of the room with a big smile, I don't think I ever smile this big, but the thing I saw, when I step out and closed the door behind me completely... priceless...**