Towers | (Ashton Irwin) / #wattys2016

Chapter 13

"So Kendall... I have to be honest." Simon pauses, of course he has to be honest, otherwise he wouldn't be Simon, I thought. I swear, my heart dropped, I was prepared for worst, but I listened carefully anyways, I mean, I just sang in front of Simon, he knows music industry, so whatever he says, it has to be right.. I was telling myself.

"I don't like you." He pauses again, the crowd booed him and all the judges looked at him, like he was crazy. I was feeling light headed, here it goes, another humiliation... why am I even here, I was having a real war in my head.

"Well, I don't like you, because I love you! That was brilliant. You just earned your attention, you gave us an inspiration with your song, and you earned your chance to tell you story to the world, people will listen, I know, because who ever doesn't listen to you would be crazy. You have my biggest yes, jet." He said to me and smiled, people were cheering and clapping, I couldn't believe it's all for me. Simon likes me, and you know what that means?**

"It means you are an amazing singer." I say to myself, I am so into her diary, that I still have goosebumps all over my body, I mean, I know what happened, because I saw the audition. But this time I saw it through her eyes, which was slightly more terrifying. I swear, I could feel the fear. Weird, okay Ashton read on, read on, I'm so curious if she wrote anything about me..

**It means you are amazing singer...**

I read this and laugh, we have the same thoughts, awesome, I smile.

**...I just might have a chance to be worldwide known singer, can you imagine... I mean, ME!! Okay, so after a few seconds of standing in front of them in shock, I thanked them and went out of the building. I still couldn't believe it. I made it...when I was outside, I inhaled deeply, closed my eyes, smiled and slowly exhaled. I called a taxi to get home and on the way, I just had to text Josh. He texted me back, all the good stuff. Yeah that is that, a few days passed by and I logged into my twitter account and I had like something hundred new followersow and messages...wow this is new, I mean, it has been a week and I'm still not used to have so many followers and people on the streets coming to me, asking me for the pictures and stuff. It's just crazy. Oh and the video from my audition has like a million views on youtube! How crazy is that! And I'm not even on the live shows yet... Oh, oh, so we were told that we will get a call if we made it to the next round. The next round is that you are called back and you have to dance and perform in front of the judges, without the crowd, then they pick 10 people from each group, so 10 boys, 10 girls, 10 over 25's. They also create, I think that 4 groups, if you weren't good enough for solo, but you were something special, they put you in to a group. So yeah, I hope I will get the call. I hope...

So I am also active on twitter to get or keep some fans, I actually really like talking to people, they are so nice and they just make my day. And I'm thinking I will start posting videos of me singing on youtube, what do you think, should I? I would ask Josh, but I don't know, I don't really like to talk about that with him, oh, oh and yeah we are talking like I said before... a lot. So i don't know, it feels nice to have someone to be there for you... and he is coming over in like 5 minutes, so I will go now and I will talk to you soon, I will report to you my decision about youtube videos and if I will get a call or not and if anything new with Josh happens. You know eventually if anything exciting happenes, you'll be almost the first to know... haha I'm lame, I know, ups... K, bye xxx**

Oh she is so excited. I wonder, if I would write a diary, I bet even Kendall wouldn't like to read it, because I would never ever put something like that together, I would probably write what I ate and how I was talking on the phone with Luke while pooping. I know she knows how to write, but even her diary is... I mean, it make sense.. what the hell am I thinking, now I'm lame. What if I told my mates that I'm reading her diary at 3 in the morning, they would probably take me to doctor or something... I shake my head, to get my thoughts out of it. I reposition myself on my bed and scroll to next page. I'm excited to see what happened to her now.

** Mai 3, 2014

Hello my little diary! Soooo... I GOT THE CALL.. only almost a month later, so I thought I didn't make it, but still a call is a call! They called me wii. Okay so I'm leaving tomorrow, I hope I'll get to booth camp, but I mean they only pick 10 girls and I mean 10! Am I good enough to be one of them?? Oh my Ronald Weasley, I hope that I am. If I came this far, I hope I will come to the live shows, you know? That is something completely different, live shows... if only. I don't even know what kind of emotions am I feeling right now, am I excited or scared?? It has to be both. I feel like I have too much energy, you know when you accidentally drink 2 cups of coffee and energy drink? Something like that, wait... I don't know how you feel when you drink 2 cups of coffee and energy drink, I've never done it before. Oh, I don't like to be like this, because it seems like I can't stop myself from talking or in this case writing. Okay calm down Kendall, calm down, breathe... you know, I actually inhaled and exhaled right now and it helped... a little. 

Okay and another news... last night me and Josh kinda kissed...**

Of course, it has to be Josh, I swear this asholle is everywhere... I really don't want to know how it felt when they kissed or anything else. Now I feel annoyed... but I don't want to skip it, because... oh dang it, I will read it.. All the butterflies she felt and all the cockroaches I will fell while reading this. And then we do nothing for girls. I mean... what the heck, let's do this and get done with this, I decide and turn my attention to her laptop again.

**Yeah, we kissed, and kinda had a mini makeout session, don't be mad. It just kinda happened, we were having a teen wolf marathon and then it just happened, I mean how can you not feel something, when you watch Allison and Scott be all in love, they are the cutest. Okay so back to the point, so after we kissed, I paused teen wolf and looked at him. He was looking back at me, with unreadable expression. I was kinda scared, I have to admit.

"Kendall I'm sorry, I did this but I just miss you and I feel so alone." He started with shaky voice.

"No, no, it's okay... I mean, I kissed you back, right?" I said, tried to make this situation slightly less depressing.

"I know, but the things I did.." he started, but I interrupted him.

"You apologized and we should really get past that." I smiled at him, hoping he would do something, or asked me something, you know, something like, I want to be with you...

"You are the best, you know." He said and moved a little closer to me, oh, I forgot to mention we were in the living room on the couch. I just smiled at him once again, I really don't know what to say to that... hmm... I have to google it.**

I was laughing she has to google, how to react when someone says to you that you are the best, that's why I love my Kendall, she always makes me laugh.

** "Kendall, I know, I was a jerk and I know, I messed up, and I wasn't there for you, when I said I would be. I know, I should be with you on the x factor and stuff, but still, I can't forget you, I can't move on, so I guess what I'm asking is... uhm... would you maybe want to give another chance to me? I can be better, I swear, I will be with you all the time, even on the x factor, I promise, whenever you'll need me I'll be there. So what do you say?" He was looking at me, now holding my hand with his. I had blank space in my mind, I swear I couldn't even blink.

"So what do you say?" He asked me again, what should I do, I thought.