Towers | (Ashton Irwin) / #wattys2016

Chapter 12

I suddenly feel the pain in my neck, i sit up completely on my bed, when I realize I fell asleep, while reading Kendall's diary, again. I look around me and find out the cause of my neck pain, of course, I fell asleep in half sitting position, still having Kendall's laptop on my lap and my neck was probably sore because my head was leaning on the wooden headboard. Oh holly balls on fire, it hurts, I look left then right, up and down, trying to get rid of the pain by stretching my neck. I rub my neck with my right hand when I notice, that it's still dark outside, hmm... I wonder what time is it, I press enter twice on her computer, since it went to sleep before, and suddenly the brightness from the screen shoots in my eyes like an arrow, I automatically turn my head aside, away from the brightness, slowly looking back to the screen, first opening just my left eye a bit, then open my right eye too, allowing them to adjust to the light.

"Damn, that was painful." I complain to myself.

"Will, you look at that its 2:33 a.m." I say once again out loud, why am I talking to myself? I shake my head while brushing my hair from my face with my hand. I think about my options, I can go to sleep or I can continue reading, since I already have her laptop on. I remember that today we start with our preparations for the gig, so I won't have any time, to read her diary... yeah I will read it now, who needs sleep, right, we are young! We will sleep when we're old and exhausted. I move a little, trying to find the position that suits me, so I'm really comfortable and start reading from where I left the last night.

**I have a really good reason for it, I will tell you all about it... So oh man, I don't even know where to start, so first.. I'm talking to Josh again, I know I shouldn't, but he tried really hard to say he feels sorry for what he did.**

What? Kendall again? What is wrong with you, why are you giving him so much chances, when all he deserves is a chair in his face! Gosh, I feel angry.. I can't understand why she is so naive...

**So basically he was at my house almost every day after my first audition, at first he just came to say hello and stuff, you know, to check up on me, I didn't want to talk to him at first, but he just keep trying and after a while we started to talk a little more, so he was here for a  quite some time. I know you will say I'm crazy, but I feel sorry for him, he felt so bad, for what he had done, he apologized like a million times, so what else should I do? You know I can't be angry at him and what if he didn't mean to hurt me, what if he didn't think it through, everyone makes a mistakes and everyone deserves a second chance. But I still don't trust him completely, so I didn't share any of my ideas for the x factor and he still doesn't know that I have a few of my own songs... we didn't even talk about x factor at all if I'm honest...

Okay so that is that, now the x factor, well... let me put it this way, a lot did happened while I didn't write, don't be mad, I will explain everything... I already had my audition... but I  won't tell you what happened just yet, I will start at the beginning. I know you are curious, if I made it or not, but let's just say that, what ever happened out there, I'm still proud of me, I did something for myself and I don't really care what everyone thinks.

Now let me get back to the point. The day of my audition came and at that time I was talking to Josh but not that much as we do now.. so I went to the x factor alone, I decided to wear some ripped black skinny jeans, white t-shirt and white converse with a necklace, classy, but I didn't feel like wearing something too fancy. And I've made my mind that, I will sing skyscraper. After a long time of thinking and listening to other songs, I picked my own song, something inside me was telling me I should sing my own song so I did. I went there with the bus and I got my number and waited in the waiting room, with others, I don't know, 200 people. I met a few nice people there, who were also auditioning and time flew by really fast. Then a lady that was calling the names of people who supposed to go on the stage came in the room once again...

"Kendall Harris, it's your turn." She said, she had a dark brown hair and brown eyes, she also had some papers in her hand. My heart skipped a beat when I've heard my own name being called, but I stood up, from where I was sitting and made my way towards the lady. She smiled to me and showed me the way. As I was walking, I started to feel more and more nervous and at that time, I felt like I'm gonna pass out. I was still walking and suddenly I've heard the crowd and saw the lights.. I was standing a few feet away from the stage, but still behind the curtains. Then some man, put a microphone in my hand and smiled, "Good luck, you can go on on in three, two, one." he then pushed me softly, so I was already on the stage a little. I heard people clapping, the lights blinded me for a second, but I kept walking to the middle of the stage, when I was there I slowly turned myself to face the crowd and the judges. Oh my Lord Voldemort it was huge, a lot of people, every one of them staring at me. The thoughts in my mind were going crazy, I was thinking of running off and crying and screaming, I was shaking, I was probably looking like I've seen the one and only Harry Potter or something, I didn't find the strength in my body to  say hello, to the judges so, L.A Reid, that was one of the judges, broke the silence, for me it was like a whole year passed by in silence, but in reality it was only a few seconds.

"Hello, what is your name and from where are you?" he asked me politely, the other three judges, Simon, Kelly and Britney were watching me intently. I felt all my blood boiling in my head, I've must of been so red...

"Hello, I'm Kendall and I'm from Texas." I manage to said and I smiled.

"Oh, that's nice, so why are you here?" Kelly asked me, I was still nervous, all this questions were making me even more nervous.

"I'm here to told the world my story, I want to be inspiration for the others and I want to help save someone's life." I was proud of my answer.

"Wow, nice, so what are you gonna sing today?" Kelly asked me again and this time she smiled.

"I'm gonna sing my own song called skyscraper, it has a really powerful massage, so I hope I will, like I've said before be an inspiration and stuff." I started to mumble but then I stopped, before I could say anything more.

"Wow again, when ever you are ready, sweety." Kelly said and leaned back in her chair, crossing her arms. The judges were all looking at me, it was scary, I was the most scared of Simon and his opinion, he is really scary dude. I was shaking, hoping I won't messed up, I was thinking, what if I forget the lyrics to my own song or anything like that, this won't be good.. then the music started to play.. I said to myself mentally "you can do it!" and I started to sing. I was feeling absolutely awesome, it's like nothing huge was happening, it's like I was singing alone at home, I was singing from top of my lungs at the last note I closed my eyes and when I was finished, I opened them again and saw people standing and clapping, some of them had tears in their eyes, even the judges were standing. Simon Cowell was standing for me.

"I don't know what to say.. it was beautiful." Britney said, sitting back down.

"Thank you." I said shaking, the moment of the truth is here.

"So let's make this quick" Kelly said.. "L. A?" she asked him.

"Of course yes!" he said, I've got the chills all over my body, this is really happening, my first yes.

"Britney?" Kelly asked her.

"Honey you've got the potential, yes!" She said and I couldn't stop smiling, I thanked her.

"It's yes from me to!" Kelly said excited, are you kidding me... three yeses!! I'm going in the next round, but now... it was Simons turn, I started to panic, but I didn't show it on the outside, if Simon likes you, then you ARE good... oh no what will he say, I thought. He was quiet for a moment looking at me with the pen in his right hand, the crowd was shouting yes...

"So Kendall..." He started...