Towers | (Ashton Irwin) / #wattys2016

Chapter 2

** December 13, 2013 

Yesterday was absolutely fantastic, Josh was so perfect! Let me start at the beginning. I was waiting in the living room for Josh to arrive, my mom as usually, wasn't at home, so I turned on the TV and just watched some cartoons. About 5 minutes passed, when I've heard a knock on a door, I took one last look in the mirror that we have hanging in the hallway almost next to the front door and I was happy with the way I looked. So as I didn't mention before, I was kind of small, not to skinny girl, let's say that I have the curves on just the right places. My dark brown hair were slightly curled today and I put more of a natural make up on, so brown eye shadow, to pop my dark brown eyes, some eyeliner, mascara and some light pink lipstick. I was wearing my favorite light pink scatter dress, with half sleeves and jeans jacket with some black heels. I finally opened the door and saw Josh. He smiled immediately and he kissed me on the check.

"You look breathtaking." He said and took my hand.

"You don't look so bad either." I joked. Lately I joke all the time and it's because of him, he makes me feel special, worth of living. When I'm around him, I don't think about my past. I'm just happy.

"In the car, Miss Harris." He opened the door for me and I set in the car. He closed the door and he quickly went to the driver sit and we were on our way, I had no idea where we were going.

"Josh, where are you taking me?" I asked. He just smiled at me. We stopped in front of some restaurant. It looked fancy and I was right. It was absolutely beautiful. He took me to our table, which was in special room, just for us two.

"OMG, Josh, you are crazy, you shouldn't have." I said to him as we stepped into the room with only candles, roses and a table for two.

"Anything for you, my lady." He is so perfect. **

Ughhh, I'm gonna puke, this guy was full of shit, how can she be so blind, well I think she will figure that out in a two pages or something. This reading just makes me wanna go find this Josh and rip his head off. He totally ruined my girl. You see, when I meet Kendall, she was so closed up, she didn't let anybody in, but luckily after a while she let me in. Oh Ashton, calm down and continue reading, this guy is long forgotten, so don't even bother to think about this complete jerk.

** "Thank you so much." I said and sat in my chair.

"So we will get our food soon, I ordered already." Can he be any more perfect? i thought when he said that to me.

"That's perfect." I smiled.

"So your 18th birthday is coming up, what are you going to do?" He asked me.

"Yup it's in a week and you know I don't have any friends, so I guess just me and maybe you if you would like to come, cause I doubt that my mum will be home, as usual." So I have my birthday in 7 days, so you guess it right, it's on 20th of December and it's true, I've never, ever celebrated my birthday, not even as a kid, mum never prepared me a surprise party or anything, so I guess I'm going on with "not celebrating my birthday" tradition. But I can't wait to be 18. It's so awesome.

"So? You can have party with my friends?" He suggested.

"No, I'm not good with people, I'm kind of scared of them." I said.

"Haha, they're not gonna eat you." He joked, I didn't tell him about me being bullied, when he saw the scars, I told him it was because of my mum and dad. I don't know why I didn't tell him about this, but I just feel ashamed. Maybe if I told him, he would see me in the same way they did and he would just left me. **

"Bullshit, Kendall, we all see you in the way you are and that's perfect!" great i'm so into her diary that I can already see the scenes, I can see her and it pisses me off, when she thinks stuff like that about herself. Why can't she see, that she is flawless.

** "no really Josh I don't want to." I said and he didn't say anything more. We ate our dinner, it was delicious.

"Let's dance!" He stood up and took my hand and pulled me closer to him, the music started to play and it was a moment that you see in the movies, I felt like Cinderella.

"I love you." He said. I could feel the butterflies in my stomach.

"I love you too." I said back to him and we kissed. So we danced for a while and then we went home. We were in front of my door.

"So... I'm gonna leave you in front of your door with just a kiss like in the movies." He said and leaned in. I couldn't stop myself, so I pull him into the house and on the couch.

"I'm not gonna let you do that." I whispered in his ear and kissed him passionately.

"I see." He chuckled and kissed me back, so then you can imagine what happened. Well after that he went home and I'm here writing this, smiling like an idiot. Really, love is such a beautiful thing and it's just the best feeling in the world, when someone loves you, with all your imperfections. Two years since I know Josh I see that the world, life is beautiful and I'm wondering why I didn't see that before. Well... sometimes I'm still not completely sure if I belong here, but I've come a long way, from my struggle and self harm to now. And I'm proud of myself. If anyone will read this, I just want you to know, you are beautiful and don't ever let nobody make you think the other way. You have to know, that there is always someone, who loves you, don't give up. Look at me, if I did it, you will too. Just don't lose hope! Well I sound like some kind of philosophic but, I know this is true, I went through this and I've made it. K, bye xxx **

Suddenly my phone buzzes, is it her? I reach for my phone and before I even look up at the screen i know it's not from her, who am I kidding? It's from my best friend Luke, saying if I wanna go out. Of course I don't, I just wanna sit here and read this. I miss her too much to do anything else. I will read this if Luke likes it or not.

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A/N
so as you notice by now i write ** on the beginning and at the ending of her diary, so that's way it's a little less confusing and so you'll know when Ashton is thinking or talking or doing something and when he starts to read again...

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