Temptation: Nate Maloley Fanfiction

Chapter 28

The lights shone through the blinds vibrantly, wakening me from my sleep. I stretched my arms, only to find Gilinsky inches away from me as my fist made contact with his face. He groaned and shifted before fluttering has eyes open.
"Sorry" I say awkwardly. I shift in the bed to give him a bit more space. He stretches and sits in bed, revealing his toned abs. Shit, don't look Katie, I thought to myself as I tried not staring. He sighed then relaxed.
"You wanna get donuts or something" he asked in a gruff, sleepy voice.
"Donuts sound great. Let me get ready" I said quietly. He let out a small laugh before rolling over and exposing his body, only covered by his underwear. I felt awkward about this whole situation.
I turned to look away and tried finding my pants. He realized what i was doing and directed me to the laundry room, pulling my jeans out of the dryer.
"You can borrow another t shirt too" he winked. Gilinsky stop, I thought to myself but didnt say aloud.
"So, donuts" I say, avoiding the sexual tension.
"Yeah, I was thinking I'd take you to Krispy Kreme if you'd like" he said, keeping his gaze locked on me. I avoided eye contact as I put my hair up in a bun.
"Sounds good" I reply and start heading out the door. We got in the black Jeep, and just as he backed out he placed his arm around me pulling me to the seat next to his.
"Gilinsky stop" I said pushing him away.
"Maybe you should consider a seatbelt then" he chuckled as if to play it off. The little bitch. "Look, we can make this awkward and act like it didn't happen, but it did. And maybe I was a dick about the whole situation but I'm trying to make it up to you. Nates gone. You can cry about it all you want to but this is your life now. Now, you can get comfortable, or you can just sit there awkwardly for the next few years" he said.
Years? It never occured to me the reality of time. Forever seemed less long than years did. Forever wasnt imaginable but years was. I felt a lump appearing in my throat as this harsh reality hit me.
We got to Krispy Kreme and got a dozen glazed donuts. Jack didn't try to say anything, just let me sit in my own thoughts for a while. I tried imagining life with Gilinsky when all of a sudden images of me married to him played through my head. I fantasized walking down the isle, having kids, buying a house, but none of it felt as comforting as the thought of Nates embrace. I never felt more like crying as we climbed back into the jeep.
"Come here" he said, pulling me closer to him. His arms wrapped around my waist and rested on my hips. All of a sudden tears uncontrollably streamed down my face.
"I miss him" I said between sobs.
"Ik you do" he said as he began stroking my hair. His smell filled my senses and made me cry even harder. I didn't want him and yet there I was, clutching onto him for life. The worst part was, that was my only option.