"What do you mean?" Junhong asked me.
"I mean that I've already made up my mind about Jota. About breaking up with him..." I started thinking about how much I really do like him, but I just don't like how he doesn't get along with Junhong. That whole different personality he has when I'm not around is a huge turn off and that's not the side of him that I fell for. "B-but I don't know...I've never broken up with someone before and I'm kind of scared. Especially since we'll still see each other around school and it will be so weird. Can you tell me what you think?"
Junhong snickered and shook his head, "I'm not gonna tell you what I think."
"Why not?"
"Because I would just tell you to dump him." He walked over to the second bed in the nurse's office and sat down. "Since I'm excused from class, I'm going to take advantage of this time and take a nap." He laid down on the bed and faced his back away from me.
I rested my back on the headboard of the bed. The first part of classes have passed, lunch passed, and now school was almost out. During this time, a bunch of thoughts ran a mill in my head. Ever since Jota and I have started dating, I haven't really even been able to spend time with him.
I would always postpone anything with him because I'm constantly thinking about Junhong and my brother and what I can do to help. And I'm not sure if Jota would understand. I don't think I have time for a boyfriend, I believe it's better if we just stayed friends. That way he won't be so disappointed if I reject his offer to hang out. Maybe? Uhhhh I really don't know anymore.
I saw the doorknob turn and the first thing I see are red converses step in. I knew those shoes belonged to Jota so I quickly leaned over and pulled the curtain that separated the beds Junhong and I were in. I pulled it enough so Jota wouldn't be able to see who was in the other bed.
"Joy." Jota came in and I smiled softly. He petted my head and his hand fell onto my shoulder, "Are you ok?"
"Yes I'm fine. It's just a little sprain."
"Where's Junhong?" His eyes moved around the room and you could hear the venomous way in which he said Junhong's name.
"Um he's not here," I lied.
"Oh well, school's already out, I'll take you to my house." Jota suggested.
"Um... my mom is coming to pick me up." I lied again. "But Jota, before you leave, I need to tell you something."
He pushed a chair next to my bed and sat down, "Alright, what's wrong?"
I rubbed my thumb over my knuckles. It was common for me to play with my hands when I was nervous about something. "I-I'm sorry. I don't think I can be your girlfriend."
"What are you talking about." He looked into my eyes and he held my hand which was nervously shaking.
"I don't think I'm ready to be in a relationship. There are so many other things going on at school and at home, I can't be someone's girlfriend right now." My chest started moving up and down with each breath I took. The reasons I gave Jota sounded so weak but I just don't know how to call it off with someone.
Jota gripped my hand tighter and his eyes still didn't leave mine, "I understand."
"Y-you do?"
"Yeah. I know there's a lot happening because of...what you're going through," He lowered his voice. At first I wasn't sure what he was referring to, but then I realized that he was talking about my "depression." I still never got to telling him that those pills don't actually belong to me.
"I don't want to stress you out even more. We can take a break for a while if that's what you need." He stood up and leaned in front of me with his hands on either side of my thighs. "I'm gonna go home now. Are you sure your mom will pick you up?"
I nodded silently because he was so close to me. His lips brushed against mine and he drew me into a kiss. When he slowly moved back he whispered, "Now that you're not my girlfriend, I'm gonna miss doing that."
He was looking at me, I guess expecting me to say something similar back, but the school nurse came into the room, "I'm back to check up on you."
"I'll be going now. I hope you feel better," Jota gave me a wink and left the room.
The nurse checked my leg once more and changed the bandages. While she was writing something on a clipboard, I was thinking of Jota. How can he be so sweet and then go behind my back and beat up Junhong? Well even though the break up didn't go exactly how I thought in my head, at least he left with some sort of understanding?
"Did school end already?" I turned my head and I see Junhong rubbing his eyes and get out of bed.
"Yeah, it ended 30 minutes ago, the nurse was just checking up on me again before she left."'
"Well ok, I'll take you home."
I nodded and limped to the door. I was more capable of walking now, but it was just a little hard. I held onto the lockers as we walked down the hall.
"Can you walk or..." Junhong slowed his pace as he watched me limp.
"Yeah I'm fine." I let go of the lockers to show that I was capable and started striding ahead. I was too ambitious and fell down after the second step.
"It's gonna take you 12 hours to walk to my car," Junhong picked me up and started carrying me through the hall. Fortunately, all the students have left for the day.
When a teacher passed by and looked at us weirdly I explained, "I sprained my ankle." And the teacher just shrugged and kept walking. When a the custodian passed by and looked at us, I said again, "I sprained my ankle."
"Why do you keep telling people that?" Junhong said disgruntled.
"Because they keep looking at us. You're carrying me like I'm a baby." I know that people would usually call this "bridal style" or something, but that sounded really weird to say. One of his hands was supporting under my leg while the other was under my back, but he set me down.
"Ok fine, get on my back again." He bent down and he carried me the alternative way.
When we got inside his car, Junhong must have thought something was off with me when I didn't immediately turn on his radio like I usually do. I always stressed how much I enjoy playing music in the car.
"Why are you so quiet all of a sudden?" He asked.
"I broke up with Jota."
"Already?" He asked while his face said 'where was I when this happened?'
"Yeah...He visited me before you woke up and I told him that I don't think I could be his girlfriend."
Junhong stayed soundless for a while, then "Well ok," was the only thing that came out of his mouth.
"Maybe I just shouldn't be in a relationship ever."
"I don't think you want to be alone your whole life. Well, unless you really want to, then you can just do what you want, but I think that you deserve a good boyfriend." Junhong inputted.
A/N* Wow I'm sooo juiced! A few days ago, this book hit 1k reads! This is the fastest I've ever hit 1k on a book. wowowowowow I cry. Zelo and Joy would be proud xD Thanks for the support everyone.
LOL I think it's kind of funny how everyone comments how much they hate jota. He's my Madtown bias but I made him the bad guy oops!
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