Unrequited ||Jaspar AU

3. Behind the lie

17th March

9:05am

Joe's p.o.v
My eye lids fluttered open as the sun seeped through the bedroom window. It's golden colour spreading through my room like wildfire. The room however, felt lifeless and empty. No matter how hard I try to make this room feel homely and lively, it always feels empty. It felt almost like a prison. But why?

I sat up, propping my numb body against the bed head. I rubbed my eyes and yawned.

I'm hungry. Actually, I'm really hungry now that I think about it. I don't remember eating last night or even going to bed. I didn't remember anything. Weird...

I flung my body out of bed and pulled on a shirt and loose sweat pants. I went into the bathroom and cleaned my self up. Once I had finished I came out. I could here the faint sound of voices from down stairs and I assumed it was Zoe and Alfie mucking about down there.

Before I walked out of the room a quickly checked the time.

9:15 am

I turned on my heel and exited the room, shutting the door behind me.

As I started to walk down the stairs my head felt heavy and I felt dizzy. My eyes sting and chest felt tight. I quickly grabbed the stair rail for support and took a few deep breaths. I was probably just tired.

In 1...2...3 out 1...2...3

In 1...2...3 out 1...2...3

One more

In 1...2...3 out 1...2...3

I exhaled and my chest stopped cramping and my eyes stopped stinging, but my head still felt heavy and as if it were pounding my body from the inside. The dizziness had subsided for now.

I decided I should tell Zoe about it and continued my way down the stairs.

As my feet hit the tiles at the bottom of the stairs, I looked down at the cold floor. It was smooth and white, the cold touch sending a slight shiver up my spine. I continued on my way to the lounge room.

Before I entered I heard more voices, oddly familiar voices, that most defiantly didn't belong to either Zoe or Alfie.

But only.... Why would he?.... Doesn't he hate me??

"J-Joe...?" Zoe muffled as her eyes landed on me.

She was sitting on the couch next to Alfie and.... Theo?!

Both Alfie and Theo's eyes shot toward me, Theo's instantly filling with concern and pain as her eyes hit mine.

"Yeah?" I responded, uncertain and anxious.

Where was he? If Theo is here should he be too? I'm sure I heard his voice.

Wait, why do I even care? I hate him... right?

"Can you come sit down please?" She smiled.

"Sure...?" I felt uneasy and unsure, though everyone's faces including Theo's seemed more relaxed and clam.

Does Zoe even realise that it was their dad that killed our mum?! Doesn't she remember anything?

My thoughts continued to swirl around my head in a confusing, horrifying mess of questions and memories as I went and sat down next to Alfie. I gulped and sighed, facing Zoe. But before Zoe could open her mouth, He walked into the room.

Caspar.

Caspar fucking Lee.

I felt my eyes lock onto his crystal blue orbs. He stood in the door way staring at me, however, I didn't find his gesture intimidating, more... intriguing.