Unrequited ||Jaspar AU

25. Not a word

Song- Helplessly ~ Tatiana Manaois

Warning: May contain swearing and Gay slurs/rude comments

[HELLO MY LITTLE ALPACAS! I be back! I've missed Wattpad sooooooooo much and I've missed you guys! Sorry I haven't been on lately, school just finished and Easter has been crazy. Also my Aunt is pregnant with her 3rd child and IM REALLY EXCITED FOR THE BABY TO COME!! Anyway, I know you have been waiting for this for a while, SO HERE IS AN UPDATE, FUCKING FINALLY. okaaaaayyyy! Enjoy, I love you guuuuyyyzz! Oh and I promise to try and update as much as I can over the holidays, but it might not be this story. I do have a JASPAR one shots that I will be update more frequently so feel free to check that out and yeah! Okie I'll let you red now.... byyyyyyyEEEEEEEE! :P]

3:02 pm

23rd April
Joe's p.o.v

"Please sir, can't you just refund the money?" I asked the desk guy, pleading for him to let me have my money back so I could go home.

"I'm sorry. We don't do refunds." He spoke sternly.

He had such a deep voice and he was insanely tall, taller than Caspar. It also made him extremely intimidating. His deep brown hair slicked back and sharp green eyes adding to the intimidation factor.

"Please?" I begged, my voice cracking.

All my fight is gone. I don't even have the anger in me to be angry at anyone, even Caspar. I just wanted to be back home curled up in Caspar's lap whilst we watch Netflix. As much as I want to mad at the stupid blonde for what he did, I can't. I love him too much to loose him. I've been yelling, screaming, crying, shouting and throwing things about all day and basically trashed my hotel room. Then I cried and got told off by the lady next door and had to clean everything up. I can't keep doing that, I'll destroy myself if I stay here alone any longer.

I guess I could go to Oli's place. But I don't want to see Oli, I want Caspar.

"No, I'm sorry. Can you please leave? Thank you, sir." He bellowed as he rose from his seat.

The boiling of his blood was visible as his pale face turned a bight shade of red. Yup, he's angry. I slapped the key card down on the front desk, right in front of him.

"Whatever." I chocked and spun on my heel, heading toward the door and away from the angry brunette man.

I sighed as I pushed open the lobby door. The cool air pierced my skin, shivers running through my entire body. I began to walk away from the hotel, the air wrapping me up in a blanket of cold breeze as my feet shuffled along the path. My fingers tingled with chills and I quickly shoved them in my pockets.

It was quiet and peaceful. Not many out and about at this time, well at least not today anyway. The breezes lapped at my fringe, blowing it back as it also brushed my face gently. It was easy to relax when it was like this, calming almost. It helped clear my mind. The trees swaying slightly and the dusty streets cleared of their usual havoc. But with all the good comes bad as well. My mind began to drag me into a hole of pure evil. Questions boggling around me.

What if Caspar hates me?
What if he loves Josh and has being lying this whole time?
What if he cheats on me again?
Is he okay?
Is he safe?
Is Josh still in our flat?
Where will I go if Caspar hates me, or dumps me?
Are we even broken up yet?
Is he hurt?
Is he mad?
Is he sad?

Tears forming in my eyes, my pace quickens. I approached the curb and turned left onto my street. Our street. I froze, gulping down the lump of fear that had formed in my throat.