Unrequited ||Jaspar AU

5. Monster

WARNING: Self harm is mentioned in this chapter. If you aren't ok with that, skip!

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17th March

10:01

Joe's p.o.v
I felt a sharp painful pang, wave across my face as Caspar's hand moved quickly before my eyes.

IM SUCH A JERK!! I DID THIS TO CASPAR! ME! ITS MY FALUT FOR ALL OF THIS! I blamed him for everything the past 5 years. I deserved that slap across the face.

I shrieked, feeling the pain from his hand colliding with my face intensify. But when I looked into Caspar's eyes, I knew this wasn't him. The real Caspar wouldn't do something like this in his right mind. Something was controlling him. something... or someone?

All I could force out were violent sobs. I wasn't so much in pain physically, but I was mentally. I never meant for this to happen. Caspar looks big and tough and intimidating, but he's really just a giant teddy bear and I knew that deep down his heart was just shattered into more and more tiny pieces.

I'm sorry Casp. I'm sorry I didn't mean it. I want to help you, I want to be friends. I never wanted to hurt you. Never.

"I CAN'T!" I heard Caspar yell at himself.

He's fighting so hard. Too hard.

"Caspar..." I whimper under my breath.

Hot tears spilled down my red face.

I missed you Caspar, every single day. I prayed you'd talk to me again, I prayed for us to be friends, but you didn't. I know why and it hurts me even more.

But, I still hate you Caspar.

"He's bleeding. Alfie! Get some bandages!" I heard Zoe fuss from next to me.

Alfie thumped down the stairs and rustled around the kitchen, in search of the bandages.

I managed to sit up. My head was pouring again and my chest hurt. I winced my eyes in pain and inhaled sharply. Zoe held me in her embrace, leaning her head against my shoulder.

"I'm fine, Zoe. I'm fine." I reassured her.

"Oh, Joseph!" I gasped hugging me tighter.

"I'm serious! I'm fine!" I insisted.

The pain still rippled through my cheek like poison. But it wasn't as bad anymore.

I looked down toward the bottom of the stairs. Theo sat with Caspar in her arms. He was bawling his eyes out and his breathing was quickly increasing.

"Z-Zoe, Caspar he's-" I yell focused on Caspar, my eyes locked on his shaking figure.

"Zoe, Alfie, JOE?! HELP?!" Theo sprang up from Caspar's side.

He started screaming, shaking and crying profusely.

Theo's eyes instantly filled with fear for her little brother.