Holding On (Janoskian Fanfiction)

Chapter Twenty Five

Elodie's P.O.V

I woke up feeling like poo. I rubbed my head and looked around.

Where was I? Oh yeah, everything came flooding back and I felt my eyes water. Beau and Ashlee.

"You okay?" Lewis said. He was in bed, sitting up.

"No," I whispered, a single tear rolling down my cheek. I wiped it away and lay down.

"Check your phone cause Jess's going mental!" Lewis chuckled.

I laughed and turned my phone on and it buzzed around 20 times. I looked at the bright screen and saw I had 5 missed calls from Beau, 3 from Jess and 1 from Luke. I also had 13 texts from Beau which I didn''t open and 3 from Jess and 5 from Luke.

From Jess:

WHERE ARE YOU?

From Jess:

I HEARD WHAT HAPPENED! WHAT AN ASS!

From Jess:

I'm so sorry, but I sent Beau to Nat's so you could come home and get some stuff and come round mine x

Good. It was sent 4 minutes ago, so I got up and went to Lewis's toilet. I looked in the mirror and gasped. I looked like a panda, so I made myself look presentable and slowly walked back to Lewis's room.

He stood up, "I'll walk you home," he murmered and grabbed his keys. We linked arms and I just broke down and soaked his t-shirt in my tears.

He comforted me and we slowly made our way back to mine.

Beau's P.O.V

What have I done?

I've lost the most amazing person in my life! I love her!

I was drunk, I wasn't thinking and the room was dark!

I was at Nat's house and they were lovely people, but I needed to be at Elodie's, I needed to see her. Luke  and Jess kicked me out and said that Elodie needed space. I cried for ages last night and I haven't slept.

What if she doesn't forgive me? Of course she won't, I snogged Ashlee in her bed!

I rubbed my hands on my face and sighed. I needed to see her, like, right now.

I stood up and walked out the door, ignoring the complaints coming from Nat behind me and I ran to Elodie's.

Elodie's P.O.V

Lewis dropped me off and as soon as I entered my house, I was hugged from everywhere. Jess, Luke, Jai, James and Skip squeezed me and I gasped for breath. They made me laugh and I forgot about Beau for the moment.

No one mentioned what happened and I appreciated it. I looked around and noticed it looked clean?

"How comes my house is so clean?" I asked them all.

"We wanted you to have a stress free day!" Jess exclaimed and I thanked them.

I ran upstairs, grabbed a bag and started shoving outfits in that I would wear for a few days. I then changed out of my dress and into an old t-shirt and leggings. I breathed a sigh of relief and strolled down the stairs.

They were all in the living room and watched me walk in with concerned eyes. "I'm not gonna die on the spot, jeez, stop looking at me!" I cried, looking at them all.

They all turned away awkwardly and Jess grabbed my hand to take me to hers.

Beau's P.O.V

I ran up to the house as the door opened. Elodie looked out and her face went from blank to pain and sadness. I caused that.

"Elodie, can we talk?" I asked, staring into her eyes.

"No," she said blankly and shoving past me.

I grabbed her wrist and pulled her back. She tried to get out of my grip but I held on and let my feelings out. "Elodie, I love you and I always have since I laid eyes on you and I always will. I'd understand if you didn't want to see me again and I'm so sorry for what happened. I was drunk and stupid and the only person I want to hold and kiss is you. I love you to the moon and back and will protect you with my life!"

She stared at me, her eyes slightly wider than usual. I could see confusion in her eyes, but she pulled her hand out of mine and gave me a death stare. "I love you too Beau, but you hurt me and I don't think I can trust you again!" her eyes shedding tears down her face.

I wanted to wipe them away and knowing I was their cause, broke my heart. She turned away and Jess followed, leaving me in her front garden, looking at her retreating body.

Tears fell rapidly and I ran into the house. Skip smiled sympathetically  along with James, but Jai and Luke gave me evils and stormed off.

I deserved it, but I was gonna get her back, no matter what happens!

Elodie's P.O.V

I cannot believe I just did that. I still love him and I miss him being at my side, but I need space.

The tears just kept falling and Jess was trying to calm me down, but I just couldn't. My heart was aching and I needed Beau to comfort me, but I just ended it completely.

We got to Jess's and I lay on the sofa, closing my eyes and she put the radio on.

"Next up, the number 1 song in the charts today by a new artist, Elodie!"

My eyes popped open and I remembered, my song was released today! Jess was screaming, but I shushed her and we listened in silence.

I felt the tears come, as I heard the lyrics and thought of Beau.

Beau's P.O.V

I was lying on the sofa, flicking through music channels with the boys, when I stopped.

Our eyes widened as we heard the presenter introduce Elodie and her beautiful voice came from the speakers.

It was called, 'Holding on to love.'

Her voice was perfect and I could instantly tell the song was about our love and me having to leave. I guess that's all gone down the drain now.

The tears were coming back. Why did I do that to her?!

I will win her back, I was more determined than ever now.