Hetalia Feels

Wilting Sunflower (P)

Warnings for: loneliness, suicidal ideation, self hatred, & suicide by hanging.
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Why doesn't my country
Have any sunflowers?
Is it really that cold?
Is it really that gloomy?

Why is every country
So scared of me?
Am I really that strong?
Am I really that scary?

Why do I have no friends?
Am I really that cruel?
Am I really that unlikeable?

What have I done,
To be so alone?
I want to be a country
Filled with sunflowers,
And sun,
And rainbows,
And happiness.

Why can't my deepest wish
Ever be fulfilled?
What have I done
To deserve this agony?

Should I just end it?
I think so.
I'll use my scarf
And hang it on
My pipe of pain.
The only pain,
However,
Will be mine.

If I close my eyes,
And don't think,
I am almost imagine
The sun is shining.

I can almost imagine
That someone cares about me.
Loves me.
And will never leave me.

Will my sisters miss me?
No, I don't think so.
Do they really love me?
No, I don't think so.
Who could love
A monster like me?
No one.

I am
A wilting sunflower,
Already so close
To the end
Of my tale.
A tale
Without a happy ending.

I wrap the scarf
Around my neck.
Closing my eyes,
I jump,
And for a moment,
I see sunflowers,
As I smile
My last smile.

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Well, that was uhh.... Something that hit me right in the feels. What about you guys? Anything I should improve on? Which part made you feel sad? For me, it was the 'pipe of pain' part. I love your requests, they make me really happy! Thank you AnimeRules369 for all of the requests! Bai~

~Weirdanimewriter out!

Character: Russia.