Hetalia Feels

Big Brother (P)

Warnings for: unrequited love/incest, self harm, failed suicide attempts, & suicide by cutting.
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Why doesn't
My big brother
Love me?

Why do I
Push away
Everyone I care about...
But him?

Why
Are so many
Scared of me?

I question
A lot of things.
Especially
My importance
In this world.

I just want to be...
Done.
Gone.

I've cut myself...
Tried to kill myself...
It never worked.

Someone always
Stopped me,
Though I don't
Know why.

Most of the time
Big brother
Stopped me,
Which makes no sense.
Big brother
Hates me....
Right?

Everyone
Hates me.

No one
Loves me.

My sobs,
And cries
For help,
Always unheard.

They can't know.
Big brother and
Big sister
Must never know
The suffering
I've endured.

I don't want to
Hurt them
More than
I already have
By existing.

I need to die.
Now.
For my family's sake.
They don't care,
They would be better off
Without me.

Yes,
Death.
It is the solution.
The only solution.

Just one more
Cut on my wrist.
Just a little deeper,
And it will finally
End.

A cut,
And then another.
Blood pouring out
Like rivers,
Surrounding my
Oh, so still body.

I lay there,
For hours,
Thinking.
Thinking of why
I should have died
Sooner.

Big sister
And big brother
Rush in,
But they are too late.

It's better this way.
Now,
Everyone can be happy.
Belarus,
As a person,
And a country,
Will soon
No longer exist.

Yes,
I'm sure of it.
It's much better
This way.

I'm tired...
I think I'll take
A nap.

I'm not stupid.
I know what comes next.
What will happen
When I finally sleep.

I love you both,
Russia,
Ukraine.
I don't know
Why you're crying,
Everything is
Better now.

Or,
Will be,
When I finally
Leave this world.

I shut my eyes,
One last breath,
And I finally
Fall asleep.

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That happened... Supposed to be short, ended up long. Probably OOC, oops! Requested by AnimeRules369 ! I still have two more requests of hers to get through.... Thanks again for all the requests! I hope to get lots more from everyone in the future! Good? Bad? Requests and constructive criticism always appreciated! Bai~

~Weirdanimewriter out!

Character: Belarus.