Hetalia Feels

Nazi (P)

Warnings for: references to nazism and the holocaust, loneliness, the begging of a desperate brother, & suicide by the use of a gas chamber.
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The loneliness
Of everyday life
Engulfs me
In sadness.

The work
Of everyday life
Weighs me down
With stress.

Having to be strict
Every day
Just makes me
Even more lonely.

It seems that,
While it is necessary,
Being strict
Makes people
Judge me,
Dislike me.

Even Italy,
A dear friend,
Someone I could
Come to love,
Shows occasional
Fear of me.

My past
Is not the best.
I have many sorrows
And regrets
Because of that terrible man,
Hitler.

I never knew that
My own brother
Was put in one of
Those camps
Just because
Of the way he looks.

I forget my agony
Only when working.
Only when
Restoring lost order.

However,
Time has taken its toll
And I
Am thoroughly exhausted
Of living.

I am tired of life,
So I must die.
Simple as that,
I believe.
An easy explanation.

Perhaps Italy,
My only friend,
And Japan,
An old ally,
Might miss me.

I know
Almost for sure
That my brother
Will grieve.

So why
Am I doing this?
Why
Am I really
Killing myself?

The answer,
As I said before,
Is simple.

Regret.
Sorrow.
Stress.
Fatigue.

They all
Still see me
As a Nazi.
A monster.

For these reasons,
I crave,
I need,
The sweet release
Of death.

Even though,
I am scared,
I turn the knob
Of the gas chamber.

I need to know.
Did they suffer?
The ones who died
By my hands?

So I will learn
The hard way.
By killing myself
In the same way
So many of them
Were heartlessly murdered.

The deed is dorm.
My duty fulfilled.
The door is locked,
My brother banging on it,
Begging me to come out.
I don't listen.

Gas fills my lungs,
As I close my eyes.
Smiling,
I realize that,
In death,
I will no longer need to
Be strict.

I will no longer
Be seen
As a Nazi.

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To be honest, I feel like these poems are getting longer and longer, as they get worse ;-; Constructive criticism? Requests? Did it make you sad? What part? Good, or bad poem? I actually enjoy writing these, even if they may suck. Thank you all for reading this book this far! Bai~

~Weirdanimewriter out!

Character: Germany.