Hetalia Feels

No Honor (P)

Warnings for: seppuku (stabbing oneself in the abdomen until death), bitterness towards suicide/those who commit suicide, self hatred, & scars.
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There is no honor
In suicide.
But what other option
Do I have?

The pain
Of yesterday's memories
Linger with me
In the present.

How could I
Try to kill
My own brother,
The one who raised me?

How could I
Take a sword
To his back,
Just for independence?

I'm a sorry excuse
For a brother,
And a country.

My own friend,
America,
Wounded me,
Struck me
In World War Two.

I know
I was in the wrong,
But the scars
Across my body
And mind
Are still present
From that day.

I can't go on
With this pain,
This sorrow.

I hide my emotions
Bury them under layers,
Never allowing them
To surface...
Though they need to.

I'm done
With this false happiness.
Even if it means
The sacrifice of my honor,
I must be released
From the harsh grasp
Of this world.

I'm sorry,
My siblings,
My friends,
My allies,
But this must be done.

The blade
Must dig deeper
Into my stomach,
Deep enough
To kill.

I cut,
Through the pain,
Never loosing sight
Of my goal.
To die.

The sword
Is covered to the hilt
With my body,
Poking out of my back.

Now,
All that's left
Is to watch
The sun rise.

I remember,
I once told China
I was Japan,
From where the sun rises.
I said "Hello, China,
From where the sun sets."

He found me rude.
Though,
I suppose,
In a way,
I politely
Called him old.

I laugh,
In spite of the pain
I'm in.
Blood rushes around me,
Staining my once white uniform
Blood red.

The sun slowly peeks
Over the horizon,
As the sky
Is painted a similar
Blood red.

I suppose this is
The last sunrise
Of Japan,
From where the sun rises.

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I don't know if you noticed this, but Japan committed honorable suicide, which Samurai's who disgraced their families by running away would do to redeem themselves. This shows that Japan felt like a disgrace, but wanted to redeem his family through his death. Requested by AnimeRules369 ! Thanks for the request, it always makes my day to receive one! Good? Bad? Requests and/or constructive criticism always welcome! Bai~

~Weirdanimewriter out!

Character: Japan.