Hetalia Feels

Not Awesome (P)

Warnings for: self hatred, name-calling, discrimination due to albinism, brief references to torture and war, & death induced by giving up.
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What does it mean
To be awesome?
I think
I've forgotten.

What is it like
To be happy?
It's been so long
Since I've experienced
Joy.
Happiness.

Years
Since I've smiled
And meant it.

I'm not awesome.
I'm worthless.
I know...
Because they told me.

"Creature of the devil!"
"Die, monster!"
"Ewe... What's that?"
"Ugh, it's him..."
"Go away!"
"You're worthless!"
"Go kill yourself!"

They said that
As they burned me,
Threw rocks at me,
Screamed at me,
Avoided me.

All because
Of the way I look.
My eye color,
My skin color.

The torture,
Being whacked often
with a frying pan,
And wars.
So many wars.
Hell, even
Having my own
Country dissolved.

Through it all,
I never cried,
Not once,
Until someone told me
I didn't matter.

That's where I broke.
That's where...
I lost hope.
The darkness
Consumed me.
Leading to my end.

So I lay here,
A tear stained letter
At my feet,
As I am
Slowly disappearing.

Gilbird,
Ever faithful,
Waiting beside me,
For death
To take its hold.

The country
Known as Prussia.
The human
Known as Gilbert.
The brother
Of Ludwig.

Whoever
You know
Me as,
Or well,
Knew.

That person,
Friend,
Country,
Brother,
Hideous creature?
It no longer
Exists.

The Bad Touch Trio
Is now
The Bad Touch Duo.

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So.... I had already been working on this when I got a new request. That will be up soon, I hope. Sorry, I've been super busy!!! Not joking, so... Freaking... Busy. Tests, school (ugh), drama, parties, the list continues. I hope to update more often in these next few weeks. Thanks for being patient! Constructive criticism and requests welcome and appreciated! What part made you sad, if any? How can I improve? Bai~

~Weirdanimewriter out!

Character: Prussia.