Hetalia Feels

Opium (P)

Warnings for: references to drugs (look at the title, dudes), scars, betrayal, internalized misogyny, purposefully  misgendering, & death by overdose.
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I am an old nation
Old,
Oh so old.

I've seen
Many things.
Fought
Many wars.

The scars
And suffering
I've experienced
Know no bounds.

I raised
Myself,
Alone
In a harsh,
Cruel world.

My little brother,
Japan,
Betrayed me.
Nearly killed me,
All for
Independence.

I still carry
That scar.
It will never
Fade,
Nor will my
Suffering.

The countries,
Constantly calling
Me a girl.
I'm a man.
I know I am.
Why don't they?

Always
Taken for granted.
Soon,
That will happen
No more.

I am tired.
When
Has it been
Since I've last
Slept well?

A sleep
Without nightmares?
Nightmares,
That were once
Real?

You know,
The opium
That I am consuming,
Is so good.

I wonder
Why I ever fought
To keep it out
Of my country.
After all,
It will help me sleep.

I've been told
If I take too much
I will sleep
Forever.

So I did that.
I took too much.

And now,
My eyelids droop,
My body weakens,
Because I am
So close
To sleep.

This eternal sleep
Is now
Just around the corner.

I have family,
Some friends,
That may miss me.
I just hope
They understand.

All I ever wanted
Was to sleep.
And sleep
I will.
I'll sleep
Forever.

Ah,
The wonderful sleep
Has arrived
At last.

Goodbye, world.
I'm going to sleep.

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This was requested by Zoethezany ! Thanks again for all the requests! I'm sorry if the topic of drugs makes anyone uncomfortable, but I feel like that would be a really symbolic way for China to die. Confused? I'll explain. The Opium Wars were some of the first wars China lost to western nations, symbolizing a new change. China giving in. So, by having him die by purposeful drug overdose, on opium of all things, I symbolized him giving up, one last time. Him losing the battle between, not nations, but himself, and his need for eternal sleep. I hope that clarified things. I hoped to have this out yesterday, but I just wasn't feeling inspired. Anyways, question time! Good? Bad? Requests? Constructive criticism? What part made you sad, if any? Thank you all for your support, you guys rock! Bai~

~Weirdanimewriter out!

Character: China.