Hetalia Feels

Rotten Tomato (P)

Warnings for: bullying/name-calling, references to pedophilia, self harm, & suicide by jumping off of a cliff.

I edited one section because it may be interpreted as condoning pedophilia, which was absolutely not my intention.
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I'm not stupid.
I know the pain
And sorrow
That life can bring.

I can hear.
I hear the terrible things
They call me.

Stupid.
Pedophile.
Drunk.
Worthless.

I know things.
I do not see children like that;
in such a vile way.
I only get drunk on occasion.
Are they right?
Am I worthless?
Should I die?

All Romano does
Is get mad at me.
My friends...
Do they really like me?

I fake a smile,
A laugh,
Happiness,
Because I hope that if I smile,
Others will smile too.

I fake being oblivious
When I am truly not.
I have regrets.
I have feelings.
I have thoughts.

No one sees
through my barrier.
A barrier
Of tomatoes,
Smiles,
Laughter,
And false happiness.

Why don't they?
Can't they see I'm broken?
I just want a hug.
A real, genuine hug.
Is that too much to ask?

I'm done
With the comments
And faking it
And crying in a bathroom
As I draw patterns on my skin
With my blood.

I'm done.
Done.
Done.
Done.

That's why
I'm here today,
On this cliff,
Overlooking my precious
Tomato garden.
I hope they bury me there.

I suppose,
If a tomato represented
My life,
That tomato
Would be rotting.

I'm sorry,
My dear Lovino,
But,
I just...
Can't take it anymore.

Time to end it.
To stop faking it.
To take a deep breath
And say...
Goodbye.

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This probably sucked, I'm not used to picturing Spain as such a sad person. Also, if anyone knows of any good pics of Spain crying, I need one, so please send it to me via PM! Constructive criticism and requests are always welcome! Bai~

~Weirdanimewriter out!

Character: Spain.