Change my mind

Heartache

It was Monday. That meant going to school. And that meant Dean would see Castiel. And since it was school there was no way he could avoid Dean. Also Dean needed to see Cas. He didn't get his mind off of him and that probably wouldn't be good for his football test today. Dean changed into his clothes and packed his bags for school. Sam stayed home today because he didn't feel good, so Dean said Goodbye to his mother and left already since he was running late. He threw his bags into the back of his Baby and hopped into the driver seat. Normally he would've picked up Castiel and his brother to give them a ride to school but he couldn't do that now. He kind of wanted to give Castiel the space he wanted. Dean didn't even know what he was going to say when he was going to talk to Castiel. A sigh escaped his mouth and soon after he pulled up at the parking lot. Usually he would've seen Cas by now already but he didn't. So Dean kept an eye out for his other friends and luckily found Benny talking to Garth. "Have you seen Cas yet?" Dean asked when he joined them. "Well good morning to ya, too. Nah haven't seen him." Benny grinned. Garth only nodded to agree with Benny. Dean had at least two classes with Cas today. He shouldn't worry about that.

When it was just about time they walked in and to their first period of the day. Maths. When they entered the room it was pretty much empty. Probably a normal thing for a Monday morning. Slowly, minute after minute people walked in. You could perfectly see what they were doing on the weekend. "Hey Dean!" Kevin smiled and sat down next to him. When Dean thought about it, it wasn't bad having Kevin sitting next to him. He always brought good mood with himself and that actually motivated Dean to do something. Also Kevin was good at maths so he always had someone to help him out. "Has anyone seen Mr. Novak?" Mrs. Mills asked when she checked if everyone was there. Everyone just shook their head. Where was he? Dean sighed a little. "Everything okay?" Kevin whispered towards Dean. He was confused by his question. "Yeah. Just a little bit upset about some things." Dean smiled a little. Luckily Kevin didn't question it.

It seemed like this period took hours to be over. Dean left as soon as the bell rang and hoped to find Castiel somewhere. But he didn't. So he decided to look for Balthazar or Gabriel. It didn't take long until he found Balth. "Hey Balthazar, is Castiel in school today?" Dean asked Cas' older brother. "Oh Dean.. uh sorry, I can't really talk to you right now, I have to go and get something.. See you later." While finishing his sentence he already left. What was that? If Dean didn't know better he'd say they are sort of against Dean. So now Dean's only hope was Gabriel. He walked through the hallway, looking for the short friend of Sam. Finally he found him. "Gabe! Is Cas in school today?" He asked him when he turned around. "Should be. But Dean listen, I can't really talk to you now. Let Castiel explain it to you." Gabriel said. What was he talking about? What was wrong with the Novak's lately? "Uhm okay? Oh and can you drop off the exercises et cetera for Sam at our house later? He's not feeling good today." He asked him and only received a nod before being left alone. Did everyone know about what he did just not him? Again Dean sighed.

"Dean is everything alright?" Charlie spoke out. Instantly Dean's face went up and he looked at the red head in front of him. "Kind of." He just said.

"What's wrong?" Her voice was concerned. She probably also knew what was wrong and maybe just wanted to check for Castiel if Dean knew what was going on. But then what would Charlie have to do with Cas? They were two completely different type of people.

"Just some weird stuff going on... Gotta find someone and actually talk to him. Haven't found him yet though." Dean only explained. He didn't want to say too much about everything. People didn't have to know about that.

"Castiel?" She asked and Dean could feel his breath stopping. Even though he tried hiding it.

"Come on, others might be stupid but I can see underneath your vessels and I can see what's going on deep inside both of you." Charlie added.

"You can?" Dean nearly gasped. Did he really just do that? He wanted to punch himself for his reaction. Charlie only giggled though.

"No but you just prove me I'm right." She grinned wide causing Dean to roll his eyes. Finally they both went to their next period which was music. One thing he didn't share with Castiel. But maybe it was better. So now he had something to focus on, cause he didn't have to think about him maybe coming in any minute. But his girlfriend was in his music class, what didn't make things easier since their kiss.

Luckily this period was gone by faster than the other one and now biology stood on the plan. He had to be there. He had to present the video. It was his only chance. Even if Dean wanted to go straight into the room, Charlie and Jo got him to join them in the cafeteria. Dean didn't bring any food with him cause he clearly forgot to take it from the kitchen counter in his rush. "Don't you want to eat something?" Lisa asked Dean. He turned his head towards her and just shook his head.

"I'm not hungry." He added to that.

When the break was nearly over, him and Charlie walked towards their biology room. When he entered his eyes first made their way to Castiel's seat which was seriously taken. Also by him. But what else did he see? Castiel almost making out with Hannah again. He could feel how his heart shattered a little in his chest. "I'm sorry." He heard Charlie whisper and softly placed her hand on Dean's upper arm. He only nodded. Dean was simply too late. Maybe things would've turned out different if they never left ten years ago. Quietly he sat down onto his chair and waited for the period to start.

"Quiet everyone. Hannah, Castiel stop making love in public." Mr. Graham began his period. "I hope all of your projects are going well and as I can see, most of the babies here are asleep right now. Well two of you weren't even able to make it one day. But one of them got another chance to prove himself in another way. Castiel, show us your work." Mr. Graham said and took a seat in the back of the room. Cas made his way up to the laptop and opened the video.

"Most of you probably know I've got two little twin brothers and with that video I want to show you a day in my life, taking care of them." He introduced the video before starting to play it. Dean could not watch or listen to it. He placed his head on his desk and covered his ears with his hands.

This was going way worse than he expected it. The next thing he heard was clapping, so Dean guessed he was done. Luckily. "Great work, Castiel. I'm glad you took this serious. A+ for you." Mr. Graham told and walked up to the front. "Everyone except Castiel and Dean now listen." He started again. Great. Dean thought and shut his mind off. He probably gave them some tasks that had something to do with the project.

"Dean, Castiel. You will clean the material that was left from experiments in other classes. Follow me." He ordered.

This was Dean's opportunity. It was now or never.