Change my mind

A ruined family

Together with Castiel, Gabriel and Sam, Dean entered Castiel's room. Before they entered Balthazar and Anna rushed into the room, receiving weird faces. Gabriel closed the door and everyone just stood there awkwardly. A room filled with teens. What a great view. Balthazar went over to hug Castiel, but Cas didn't return the hug.

"Cas.. I'm so sorry.. I didn't want-" Anna started but was interrupted by Cas.

"No. You're not sorry. You knew exactly where this was leading to and you anyways did it. You can leave, I don't want to see you." Castiel said coldly. Anna stood there in shock. Tears filled her eyes. But Castiel was right. She knew what she was doing. She knew it.

"You've done things like that for a while now. You always made it hard for me. Because of you I can't live my life as a teenager. Whenever our parents are gone I have to watch out for Lucifer and Michael. You just care for yourself. I wanted to go out with Hannah, I wanted to spend some time alone with her, damn I wanted to do a whole lot of things with her, which I couldn't because it was always me taking care of everything. It was always me, who had to look out for our brother, to see how we get through. You never cared. And when you came back you did everything to make my life worse. Because of you I wasn't allowed to see Dean anymore. Because of you it even got to this situation. Don't you realise it?" Dean had never seen Cas like that. He was hurt and angry at the same time. But when he mentioned Hannah and all the things he wanted to do with her, Dean felt a little ache in his chest.

But what was he worrying about? Castiel was his now. There was nothing he should worry about. Anna then just left the room sobbing. Balthazar followed her since he guessed he wasn't wanted here at the moment as well.

So it was only Gabriel, Cas, Sam and Dean again. "Do you think things will get better again?" Sam asked, breaking the silence. Gabriel and Cas only shrugged. Dean guessed that they would know in time. But for now there was nothing they could do than wait. Dean slowly pulled Cas into his arms as he noticed him sobbing. "Everything is going to be okay. You can always come to us, remember." Dean told him softly, kissing his temple. Cas only nodded.

After quite some time a knock came from the door and John entered soon after. "Let's head home. Mary is probably already waiting." He smiled softly and leaving again.

"If anything happens, call me. I will get you out of here as well okay?" Dean looked straight into Cas' eyes, who just nodded again before Dean pressed his lips onto Cas'.

"The same counts for you, Gabe." Dean turned to Gabriel as he left Cas' lips.

"I know." The small kid just grinned and pecked Sam's lips.

Sam and Dean walked downstairs, turning their head's to the living room, where only the mother of the Novak's was sitting. She smiled softly at the boys and stood up walking towards them.

"I know my husband is still not convinced but I accept it as well. I will do everything so Castiel and Gabriel can be happy with you." She whispered. Tears were filling her eyes. A simple "Hmpf" left Dean's mouth before he left the house. He heard Sam saying something but he couldn't tell what. His father was already waiting outside the impala and got in when Dean got in as well. They waited for Sam until they drove home.

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When Dean left Castiel felt quite empty. He felt lonely. All of the other day he knew that there was someone who was going to wrap his arms around him if he was feeling bad but now there was no one. He would probably imagine his mother to hug him and tell him that everything is going to be okay but after everything he didn't think that she would ever do that again.

Gabriel left as soon as Sam and Dean left. Okay Cas told him that he could leave, even if Gabriel asked a few times to make sure he was alright. Right in the moment Cas wanted to lay down into his bed, his door opened. An angry father appearing.

He held a bottle of beer in his hand and walked up to Castiel. "Don't think that you're even a part of this family you bag of shit. You're a disgrace for this family. You should be ashamed to be in this house again and believe me you will be punished till he day I die." His father hissed and threw his bottle after Cas, which he luckily moved out of the way from before it hit him. Then his father walked to him and grabbed Cas by the hem of Cas' shirt and threw him into the ground. He started kicking Cas multiple times. Castiel didn't move, he decided to just live through it and let it happen to him. After a few minutes his father let go of him.

"Now to your brother." He huffed and suddenly Cas felt adrenaline rushing through his body. He had to do something. He couldn't let his little brother get hurt.

"No! Leave him alone! Let it out on my, punish me but leave him in peace, please!" Castiel begged. He expected himself to sound stronger but he sounded much weaker. "What does the fag say?" His father turned around facing Castiel. But he didn't let Cas tell him twice and he let it out all the way on Cas again.

When he left, Castiel huddled together starting to cry. He heard the door open again and two weak arms wrap around him. When he opened his eyes, he saw his mother looking at him. She was crying as well. It seemed like she noticed everything but for now Castiel was quite happy that his mother was there for him. Holding him in her arms just as she used to when he was a kid.

Castiel still was a kid. Just a little older and a lot more broken.