Change my mind

Everything comes to an end

It was another sleepless night for Castiel. Another sleepless night because otherwise nightmares would take over him. Castiel wasn't sure when he heard something hit his window. He thought it was his imagination. But it happened over and over again.

Slowly Cas rose from his bed to see what was going on. When he opened his window a stone nearly hit his face. Castiel glanced outside and didn't believe his eyes. Dean was standing outside.

"Shit, did I hit you?" Dean asked but made sure to stay as quiet as possible. Castiel didn't reply though. He closed the window and rushed down the stairs to enter his garden. A smile was spread across Dean's face as he saw Cas. He seemed to get a kiss but instead he got slapped.

"You just leave for months and think turning up like this is okay?!" Tears were flooding down Castiel's cheeks.

"Cas.. look I'm sorry... but let me explain to you..." Dean said, his smile already faded.

"What is going... Dean Winchester, oh I'm glad to see you," Balthazar stormed towards Dean and picked him up by the collar of his shirt, pushing him against a tree.

"What do you think you're doing here?! Just leave my brother, get him to the deepest depression, he doesn't eat, he doesn't come out of his room, he doesn't talk, he doesn't shower or only once a few weeks and you just think showing up here again would be a good idea?!" Balthazar shouted.

"I-I-I'm sorry.. I-I can explain.." Dean stuttered.

"You can? I'm listening!" Balth hissed.

"Let him go.. I want to talk to him.." Castiel said. His brother was surprised at his words. But just as Cas told him, Balthazar let go and went inside again. Castiel reached for Dean's hand and pulled him inside, up to his room, where he locked the door behind himself.

"Talk," Castiel said as he glanced at Dean.

"I'm sorry. I wanted to tell you. Okay at first I didn't because I thought we would only be gone for a few days and I didn't want you to break your head over it. But as it started to become weeks I didn't know how to tell you. I didn't know how to explain this to you. And sometimes when I knew I had no signal. Be sure that Sam made me feel guilty for it because he told Gabriel right away... And if it wasn't for Sam we probably wouldn't be back now. I'm really sorry and I accept it if you don't want me back, if you want me to leave. I accept it," Dean's voice became shaky while he talked. Castiel knew he was sorry. Still he was disappointed and hurt but he was willing to start over.

"Say something, Cas," Dean was nearly crying. Castiel must've been silent much longer than he thought. But instead of saying something, he pulled Dean close and pressed his lips onto Dean's. Within a second Dean returned the kiss, passion filled it. Dean placed his hands onto Cas' waist, pulling him even closer, removing every space between them. Castiel slowly pushed Dean onto his bed so he sat down and Cas straddled him.

His fingers were tangled in Dean's hair, pulling it a slightly causing a moan to roll from Dean's lip. A grin spread across Cas' face until he started pulling of Dean's sweater. His skin was shining beautiful in the moonlight shining through his window. While Castiel took his time staring at Dean, Dean took off Castiel's sweater as well. But his face was filled with sadness as he looked at Castiel's body. He had to admit that he didn't look that good anymore.

"I'm so sorry Cas," Dean mumbled.

"Let's not talk about that now," Castiel breathed out as he pressed kissed along Dean's jawline down to his neck. How he missed Dean. Another moan left Dean's mouth and Cas was able to feel his length growing underneath him. Cas backed up a little only to unbutton and take off Dean's pants and boxers. While he stood he took off his own sweatpants, his luck he wasn't wearing boxers. Again Cas sat down onto Dean's lap and pressed his lips onto Dean's once more, both of their growing lengths were rubbing against each other, soft moans escaping both of their mouths. Cas shortly broke the kiss, only to grab some lube from his drawer and put some onto his hand before rubbing it on Dean's dick. He threw the lube aside and positioned his hole above Dean's dick, his tip gently pressing against his hole already. Castiel glanced at Dean before guiding his length in and slowly sliding down until he completely filled Cas. As Castiel adjusted to Dean he started moving up and down slowly while kissing Dean. Dean wrapped his arms tight around Cas to pull him as close as possible while still thrusting into him. Their kisses were passionate and loving. Everything they couldn't show each other over the months, they showed each other right now.

Dean sped up the pace of his hips jerking up. It didn't take much longer until both of them were close and finally released. Dean spilled his hot load inside of Cas while Cas blew his load over Dean's upper body. Dean let himself drop to his back, Castiel still on top of him before Cas got off of him and laid down beside him.

"I still love you," Castiel whispered as he cuddled against Dean and wrapped his blanket around both of them.

"I love you too," Dean said as he pressed a kiss onto Cas' temple.

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Finally they graduated and with graduating a great future was about to come. Dean and Cas found an apartment not far from where they supposed to live and decided to move there together. They made a deal that whenever John had to leave with more than just himself, he would leave at least Sam at home and Dean and Cas would watch over him. Castiel got better. He was finally happy again and he was smiling again. And now that he was able to move, together with his boyfriend, was going to make things even better. He was away from things that only caused sadness and he was glad. Even though he promised to visit a lot for his little brother.

"Hey Cas," Dean shouted from the living room of their new apartment.

"Yes?" Cas came over smiling.

"You know, we've been going through a lot and after all we still found each other over and over again. And I know no matter through how much crap we have to go through we will always find a way through it. I know I want to be with you all my life. Cas, do you want to marry me?" Dean knelt down. Castiel's hand flew up to his mouth. He couldn't believe it. He expected anything but this.

"Oh god, Dean. Yes!" Castiel smiled widely before pulling his love up and pressing his lips against his. This was going to be the start of something great.