Change my mind

Time for the truth

Even though it was the thing he didn't want to do, Dean softly pushed Castiel away. "What's going on with you? This isn't you Castiel." Dean asked and crossed his arms in front of his chest.

"This is me, Dean. I figured everything out and I thought about everything a lot. I thought about you a lot. Ever since we kissed, I can't think of anything else anymore. Even if I kiss Hannah, I've got you on my mind. I imagine I'm kissing you instead of her and I don't want to know what I imagine when I go further than kissing with her. I don't even know if there is anything I feel for her anymore. Cause what I know is, that I love you, too." Castiel spoke out. It felt like Dean's heart stopped beating.

"And I don't care what my parents said. I want to stay in touch with you. I want to see you and I want to kiss you." Castiel added, since Dean didn't say anything.

"Let me get dressed and we'll talk about that at home okay?" Dean suggested. He couldn't get anything else out. He was too surprised by what he said. Castiel only nodded and stood there watching Dean, who didn't do a thing.

"Don't you wanted to get dressed? I mean I wouldn't mind this at all but I don't know about you." Castiel pointed out that Dean was still in his boxers. When he realised it by himself, he put on his pants and shirt again and put anything he didn't need any more in his bag. He took his bags and together with Cas, he made his way up to his impala.

"Thank you for coming." Dean could finally say when they were driving towards the Winchester's house. For a moment he looked over at the boy sitting next to him. Castiel turned his face to Dean as well and gave him a warm smile.

"You're welcome. Like I said you were great out there." He still smiled at Dean while Dean was already focussing on the road again.

Dean probably couldn't even find enough words for how glad he was to have Cas with him right now. It was everything he wanted but he didn't think that it would go good in any way. Someday there had to be something going wrong.

A short while later, Dean pulled up in front of their house and got out of the impala. There was a bike outside of the house that Dean didn't know so it seemed like Gabriel was over. After Castiel got out as well, they made their way up to the house and went it. Mary was sitting in the living room and watched some TV, while laughter came from above. Dean closed the door behind Cas and walked into the living room to greet his mother. "Oh, hey Castiel. I'm glad you're here." She smiled and then faced Dean. "We will talk about everything now." He whispered into her ear and then left to his room with Cas.

Dean put his bags away and sat down onto his bed, patting next to him. Not even hesitating, Castiel sat down next to him. He took Dean's hand in his and smiled a little.

"So... you really love me?" Dean asked, looking at Cas' hand in his.

"Yes, Dean." Castiel's voice was soft. Calming. Dean couldn't help but smile and now looked up into Cas' eyes.

"But how did that change come so quickly?" Dean asked and stared right into his eyes. They were as beautiful as the first time he saw them.

"Like I said, I thought about everything a lot and I figured that I'm worse being without you. I just couldn't keep my mind off of you. I also talked to Gabriel about it. He told me I should talk to you and even if I decided against you, I should at least tell you why. Damn I don't care what my parents say. I love you and I want to spend my days with you. I don't want to avoid you." Castiel kissed Dean's cheek which caused him to blush.

"Thank you." Dean only said.

"For what?" Castiel was clearly confused.

"For everything." Dean smiled and kissed Castiel. Immediately Cas returned his kiss and rested his hand on Dean's cheek. Unlike the other times they kissed each other, this was a soft and lovely kiss. There was nothing rough about it and they didn't feel the urge to rip each other's clothes off. Not yet. Time after time the kiss got more passionate and Castiel slowly pressed Dean onto his back, crawling over him. But then he interrupted the kiss and sat down on Dean's stomach.

"I'm throwing a party on Wednesday since we've only got three days of school this week and my parents are gone for a while again. Anna won't be there. Probably. And if she has nothing to say cause the party was her idea." Castiel smiled. "So are you coming?" He then asked, looking down at Dean. "I don't know.. I'm not really a party person." Dean shrugged.

"For me? Pretty please?" Castiel pouted and looked at Dean with puppy eyes. Damn it. At this point he hated Cas. Dean could never say no to Sam's puppy eyes. How was he supposed to say not to Cas'?

"Ugh fine." He sighed and a huge smile spread around Castiel's face.

"We've still got to plan though. I think it will start around seven." Castiel smiled and leaned forward to kiss Dean's forehead. Dean took that opportunity to wrap his arms around Cas and pull him close. He only received a smile and then Cas buried his face in Dean's neck, gently leaving kisses and sucking a little every now and then. At one spot Dean believed he left a hickey cause he sucked harder and longer than on the other places.

"So are we... in a relationship or?" Dean asked a little while later. Castiel lifted his head up to face Dean. "If that's what you want. I still have to figure things out with Hannah though. Cause I'm sort of still with her. But I will end things with her. I promise." Castiel replied smiling and Dean only nodded.

"But of course I want to be your boyfriend." Dean then smiled kissing Cas again until Mary walked in. Without knocking.

"O-oh I'm so sorry for interrupting. Uhm.. Gabriel wanted to head home and I guess I should tell you, in case you want to join him." Mary said trying not to sound embarrassed.

"Uh yeah, I should probably also head home. See you tomorrow." Castiel pecked Dean's lips before getting up and rushing downstairs.

When they heard the door shut, Mary closed the door behind herself and walked over to Dean who now sat up straight.

"Seems like it went good." She smiled.

"Yeah. He told me that his parents didn't want him to be in contact with me but he will still stay in contact with me cause they can't decide what he does. And he said he loves me as well and well.. we are together." A huge smile spread across Dean's face when he spoke out the last words.

"I told you everything would be alright. I'm proud of you. And I hope your relationship will work out great. If you need any tips or anything you can talk to me." She suggested.

"Mom, this is awkward." Dean rolled his eyes and grinned.

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"So you talked to him?" Gabriel asked while pushing his bike next to himself.

"Yeah." Castiel answered. Just don't say too much Castiel.

"And?" Gabriel was curious.

"I've explained everything to him. First we talked in school and told him I wanted him to leave. He told me that he had his football test today and he would be happy to see me there. I had a lot of time to think from the time I told him he should leave me and his test and I decided that I don't want to be without him. I still have to tell Hannah. But I love him and he loves me and we're dating. But don't tell Anna or anyone okay? I'm trusting you with this." Castiel explained the whole situation to his little brother. Gabriel only grinned widely.

"Congrats bro. I knew you would find your right path." He patted Cas' shoulder.

"And don't worry. I won't tell anyone." He promised.