Infinity | H.S.

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When I stood there, staring at this girl without muttering another word, I noticed her face grow more red than before. She didn't seem to know what to do with herself. She played with the ends of her hair or fiddled with her hands because I apparently lost my head and just couldn't seem to utter any more words to her. We stood there for a good ten minutes as everyone else around us continued with their day. She eventually let out a defeated sigh before sending me an apologetic smile, waving goodbye, then walking away. I watched, her black hair that was pulled back into a ponytail swayed from side to side as she walked away.

I couldn't seem to stop thinking about this girl, at all really. I found myself curious as to what her favorite foods are and if she would rather read a novel or watch the tv. I wanted to know if her eyes were brown or green, seeing as I didn't get a very good look the other day, and I wanted to know if her pale skin was soft or rough to the touch. I imagined myself being her boyfriend and getting to do all of the cutesy relationship stuff with her but I also thought of the possibility that she could already have a boyfriend, at which I sneered at and immediately pushed the thought away.

What would Kelly think if you were sitting around thinking about another woman like this? My subconscious decides to chime in, in which I oh so graciously roll my eyes at. Kelly isn't of any concern to me at the moment. She's probably off with the girl she cheated on me with anyway, so why should I be concerned of what she thinks?

I shake my head, trying to clear my mind of all thoughts of Kelly. I get up from my seat and make my way to the bathroom. I look in the mirror, running a hand through my unruly curls then decide to take a hot shower. Maybe this will help clear my clouded head.

After my shower, I wrap a towel loosely around my hips before walking to my bedroom. I dry off, then throw some clothes on for the day, along with a pair of boots. I go back into the bathroom and blowdry my hair, taming it with a brush before grabbing my phone, wallet, and keys then walking out of the house.

I walk down the street, in the direction that I headed a few days ago when I bumped into that girl. I can't believe I didn't even get her name, for fucks sake. I was acting like a complete fool that day and I still don't understand why. I still don't know if the reason was due to my intoxication or if it was her but I was surely not right in the head.

I sit on a bench when I get near the small shop that I was continuously buying drinks from not even a week ago. I glance around for a few seconds before letting out a sigh and resting my head on the back of the bench. I shove my hands into the pockets of my skinny jeans, my mind beginning to race. I wonder if I can find this girl on social media somewhere. I very highly doubt it since idiot me didn't get her name but I could try, then message her there. I just had to find a way to talk to this girl.

I go to dig my phone out of my pocket in hopes of finding her somewhere on the internet but my attention gets brought somewhere else when someone calls out to me.

"Mind if I sit beside you?" My head shoots up and I look to see the elderly woman from a few days ago in the shop standing beside the bench

"Of course not. Go ahead." I nod. The woman sits down beside me then pulls out a pack of cigarettes, pulling one out and lighting it before placing it to her lips.

"I'm glad to see you haven't been coming in and buying drinks these last few days." The woman starts. "You're young. You don't need to start drinking all the time."

"I guess it's for the better." I shrug. "Was starting to bother me anyway."

"Well, what made you stop?" She inquires, holding the cigarette between her lips as she talked.

"Uh...actually, this girl said the exact same thing that you did to me and I stopped. I even threw away those bottles that I bought at your store." I explain to her. "Have you happened to see her? She's short and has black hair and either brown or green eyes, I'm not quite sure. She seems really sweet but I didn't really get to talk to her."