Infinity | H.S.

24

I don't know how you guys are gonna like this chapter. This is where things start to get a bit serious. But please enjoy.

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It's now been a few weeks since Nicole's birthday. March is now almost over and, when April rolls around, I know I'm going to be a little more upset and on edge. April twenty-third is, or rather would be, Kelly and I's anniversary of when we first got together. It would've been nine years since I asked her to be my girlfriend on that chilly day in April when I was seventeen years old. We fell for each other instantly and said "I love you" just a month after we started dating. Of course, we both meant it. At least I did anyways. I'm sure she did at the time.

I'm actually not sure of anything to do with Kelly at the moment.

It seems that a lot is reminding me of her and I've found myself comparing Nicole to her on several occasions since I noticed how close the date of the anniversary was. I know I really shouldn't compare the two, they aren't really anything alike, but it's just something that I can't seem to help. I've compared the way they hug, the way their skin feels against mine, the way they smile, etc. I've compared just about everything that I can and I just don't understand why. Why can't I get over Kelly?

And not even Nicole can bring me away from thinking about Kelly at certain times. I can be lost in a daze remembering a date Kelly and I went on where we had the best time to find that Nicole has said my name several times. She hasn't quite got frustrated with me yet but I'm sure it's coming if I continue to not catch it when she's calling for me.

My phone dings in my pocket twice in a row, notifying me that I've gotten two messages. When I check to see who it is, I see one is from Nicole and the other is from Kelly.

On top of everything else, Kelly has been texting me a lot. I've also replied a few times and we've kept a conversation going until I realized what I was doing.

Hell, I don't even know what's going on anymore with me. I'm acting like I've lost my head.

A frustrated sigh escapes me before I unlock my phone and go to Nicole's message, ignoring Kelly for now.

Nicole 3:03 PM
I'm gonna come over and we can spend some time together, okay? I'll bring some things and make some dinner for you :)

Fuck, she's so sweet and I'm sitting here thinking about my ex-girlfriend who cheated on me.

Harry 3:05 PM
Okay, love. That sounds great

Nicole 3:05 PM
Have you been okay? I've noticed you've been acting kinda off lately...

Shit, she's noticed. Of course she's noticed. What the hell am I supposed to tell her?

Harry 3:07 PM
Oh, it's nothing. Just me thinking is all

Nicole 3:08 PM
Okay, if you say so... I'll be over after while.

Harry 3:09 PM
Okay. I'll see you then

I close my eyes and contemplate about texting Kelly back or not. I know I probably shouldn't but, it's just, there's something nagging at me, telling me to do it. I should at least see if she needs anything, right?

Re-opening my eyes, I open my messages again and tap on Kelly's name.

Kelly 3:03 PM
Hey, babe (: how're you?

Harry 3:12 PM
I'm alright. How're you?

Kelly 3:13 PM
I'm good (:

Harry 3:15 PM
Is there something that you need?

Kelly 3:18 PM
I just miss you is all :-/

Harry 3:19 PM
I'm starting to miss you a bit, too, admittedly. But I have Nicole and she makes me happy

Kelly 3:21 PM
Obviously not happy enough to keep you from missing me. You should just come back to me and we can both be happy with each other (:

Harry 3:22 PM
No. It doesn't matter how much I miss you, I can never trust you the same way again.

Kelly 3:24 PM
I know ): I'm sorry, Harry, I really am. I wish I knew of a way for you to forgive me.

Kelly 3:25 PM
It's kind of hard being and staying with Abby. I haven't even told my parents about her...it's just weird, you know?

Harry 3:27 PM
I can't talk about that with you, Kelly. If you miss me then, you want me. You pick Abby or me, not both. Make your choice.

I lock my phone then toss it on the couch, running a hand through my hair. She can't expect me to ever go back to her if she's continuously going to be with Abby, right?

Fuck. She can have Abigail if she wants her. I don't give a shit.

And, even after I've thought this, I find myself jealous that Abby is the one that gets to love Kelly and I don't.

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After Nicole's lovely meal, we end up cuddling up on the couch and watching some sort of funny series on the TV. Natalia is with Jennifer until Nicole gets home later.

When the show switches to commercial, Nicole looks over at me and sends me a heart warming grin.

"How was your day today?" She says, squeezing the hand she's holding lightly.

"It was good." I reply. "How was yours?"

"It was pretty good." She tells me. "Thanks for spending the evening with me and letting me use your dishes to cook."

"Oh, that wasn't a problem. I have fun spending time with you." I inform her. "Anytime, love, really." I lean over a kiss her cheek lightly.

"I should really clean the dishes." She mumbles, looking from me to the kitchen.

"Hey, no." I make her look back at me. "I'll toss them in the dishwasher later. You stay in here with me and cuddle until you absolutely have to leave, got it?" I tug her as close to me as I can get her.

"I wish I didn't have to leave." She whispers, almost to where I couldn't hear her. She presses her lips to my jaw, lingering a kiss there and sending a small sensual chill down my spine.

We look at each other simultaneously, her sending me another smile but this time with dimples in both of her cheeks.

"You're just so cute, Nicole." I note. How could I miss Kelly when I have Nicole? Just, how?

"Thanks." She replies. "I think you're pretty cute, too." She rubs our noses together, causing me to grin the widest I've ever grinned and for my heart to practically melt.

I know my feelings for Nicole increase every time I'm with her but how can I miss Kelly and have such strong feelings towards Nicole at the same time?

I'm such a mess.

-A/N-

Here's an update, hope you enjoyed it!

What do you think Harry is gonna do about the Kelly situation?

What's your opinion on Harry at the moment?

Any questions for me?

I have 28 chapters planned for this book then the epilogue so there are only about five more chapters left of this book. Then, we move on to the sequel xD

All the love x

~Nicole~