Infinity | H.S.

27

I'm sticking to Nicole's POV for this chapter and the next as well. I'll switch back to Harry's for the epilogue xD. Please enjoy.

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Harry invited me to spend an entire weekend with him at the beginning of the week. I thought it was really sweet and since my mom wanted to spend some quality time with Natalia, it really all works out.

I climb back into my car after dropping Nat off at my mom's, starting up the engine and beginning my drive back. This'll give me some time to think about what I've been contemplating for a while now; if I'm in love with Harry or not.

It's hard to say if I am or not because I haven't ever been in love with anyone before. I've been told it's something amazing and magical, something that is truly indescribable, something words can't really explain or define. It's something different to everyone and that's making it a hundred times harder on me. I need to know what it feels like in order to say whether or not that I love Harry.

I know that I would do absolutely anything for him and all I want in the world is for him to be happy. I want to be able to spoil him to his hearts desire. When he touches me or kisses me, I always get those special kind of butterflies in my stomach and I always feel like I'm the only one that's ever received his touches and kisses. Every time I get to cuddle with him, when he wraps his arms around me, that's the only place I want to be because it feels just like home. I feel like nothing in the world can harm me as I'm in Harry's arms. I know that I can accomplish anything as long as he's by my side every step of the way.

I want to say this is love. I want to go to his house, tell him that I love him, then hear him say that he loves me back. I just don't want to end up being hurt. There's a possibility that he doesn't even feel the same way or he could just wake up one day and decide that he doesn't want me anymore. I don't handle pain well at all and I've been told that heartbreak is a real unbearable pain.

I blow out some air out of frustration just before my phone starts ringing. I just answer the call and put it on speaker, not wanting to risk having a wreck by glancing at my phone.

"Hey, Nic." Jennifer's sweet voice greets me. "Are you over at Harry's yet?"

"No, not yet. I'm headed back from dropping Natalia off." I reply. "What's up?"

"Oh, just calling since you told me to call when I've got the time." She answers. "What's been on your mind?"

"Harry." I sigh. "I'm just really confused at the moment."

"What about Harry? What'd he do?" She inquires.

"He didn't do anything, really." I say. "I think I'm in love with him."

"Then what's there to be confused about?" She asks.

"I don't know what love feels like, Jennifer." I reply, releasing a deep sigh. "And, it's like, I want to be in love with him but I don't want to end up hurt."

"I'm like 153% positive that you're in love, Nicole." She replies. "You've never acted like you have with Harry with any other guy. You treat him like he's royalty or a missing artifact. You show so much affection towards him that I almost want to vomit and I know how you are when it comes to people touching you. You're glowing all of the time and it's because of him. You're in love with him and you're missing out on it all because you're scared of getting hurt."

"You know I don't deal with pain well." I mumble.

"Nicole, please, just let go and love with all of your heart. If he does end up hurting you, I can buy a shovel." I can't help but to laugh at her.