Love Will Find It's Way. {Austlan Cashby} BoyxBoy

Chapter One:Sick Little Games.

I open my eyes slowly and I immediately regret it. The curtain is pulled open and the sun is shining right in my eyes. "Oh good, you're up." I look over at the door to see Maddie standing there with a cup. "What's that?" I ask confused. She smiles and walks over to my side. "Coffee." She hands me the cup and I sit up and take a sip. "Thanks babe." I mumble. She kisses my head and walks out of the room.

I don't know what's wrong with me lately but I just don't feel the spark with Maddie anymore. It's like all my feelings that were once there just disappeared. I personally think it was when she lied about going to the club with some guy.

I finally had a shower and got dressed. I was suppose to meet Austin in twenty minutes at Starbucks to talk about our tour coming up. I slipped on my black skinny jeans and a Drop Dead t-shirt. I couldn't get my hair to cooperate with me so I threw on a beanie. "Maddie, I'm going to meet Austin. I'll be home later." I go to walk out but she just throws herself all over me. "Love you Alan." She whispers. "Love you." I mumble as I walk out. She's just so needy and desperate, it's annoying.

I made it just on time to see Austin pull up. I slowly make my way over to his car but he doesn't get out. He kind of just sits there staring out the window. "Austin?" I say unsure. He doesn't even hear me, he doesn't notice me. I hear him scream and he punches his steering wheel making me jump. What's going on?

I reach over slowly and open the passenger side door. He doesn't look over, he keeps his gaze on the steering wheel. I get in and close the door. "Austin? Are you okay?" I ask. He starts crying and I'm just so confused. I lean over and hug him and he kind of jumps. "What's going on?" I ask concerned. He shakes his head and punches the steering wheel again. "I need to drive." he says as he tries to catch his breath.

Before I can protest and tell him its not safe, he starts to drive down the street. I'm so lost to what's happening. I pull out my phone and go on his twitter. His last tweet was "Starbucks with my best friend @AlanAshby." So something obviously happened after that. I check to see if any of the guys texted me to warn me but nope.

"For god sakes Austin, you're scaring the fuck out of me. Would you like to tell me what's going on?" I ask. He pulls into his driveway and turns off the car. As I go to ask why were here, he gets out of the car and goes into his house. I'm unsure of what to do. Does it mean he wants to be alone or he wants to show me something? I decided to get out and go inside. I close the door slowly behind me.

I sit there wondering where he is now. I hear loud thumps and shatters from upstairs. I run down the hall and up the stairs to his room. "Austin!?" I shout. He stops what he's doing and looks around. There's shattered glass everywhere and lamps are knocked over. "Where am I?" he asks. "You're kidding right? You just drove here, to your house!" I shout. He looks at me confused. "What? Aren't we suppose to be at Starbucks?" He asks. I nod and slowly walk closer to him.

I think I know what's going on. This use to happen all the time, well before he started going to see help, but he use to lash out and go places then he would totally forget and start asking questions. I think it has to do with his mom. Mothers day was just a couple of days ago and I caught him looking through old photos last week. "Are you okay?" I ask worriedly. "I'm fine Alan." he mumbles. I don't believe him but I decide not to question him.

I helped him clean the mess he made then we sat downstairs on the couch. "About the tour, we can't go." I'm taken by surprise. This was one of our biggest tours. "What!?" I practically shout. "Gielle's the manager for Miss May I." He mumbles. "Did you just say Gielle?" I ask unsure. He nods and looks away. "Who cares man!?" I say dramatically. "Who cares?! I care. She is my ex wife, she made me fucked up!" He shouts loudly. I sigh and run a hand through my hair. I decide to call an emergency band meet.

"What's the emergency Ashby?" Tino asks as he walks into to Austin's with Phil and Aaron. "Well, Austin says the tours off." I throw my hands in the air but then drop them in frustration. "Why!?" Aaron asks. "Gielle's going to be the tour manager for Miss May I." I say. "You have got to be kidding me! Who cares Austin? That was like four years ago! Shes a whore anyways!" Tino yells. "You seriously need to get a grip Austin! Stop with the bullshit and deal with it! You'll have us there so don't worry!" Phil says. I nod in agreement and Austin sighs and runs a hand through his hair. "I guess, whatever." He says in defeat.

The guys left after we played some xbox but they made sure Austin was alright. They managed to make him happy so I'm glad about that. "How are you and Maddie?" Austin asks randomly. I put my phone down and look at him. "Good, I guess." I mumble. "What do you mean 'I guess'?" He asks curiously. I sigh and explain everything to him. "Dude, I'd totally feel the same way if that was me. I want to be honest here, I think you should leave her before she actually cheats." Austin says so simply. I wish it was that easy.

"I can't do that to her, what about Sophie? She will most likely take her!" I try to make excuses, but Austin doesn't buy them. "Alan, she wouldn't take Sophie, she barely pays attention to her unless you ask her to send a picture of her." It's true, she doesn't pay attention to Sophie but still, what if she wants to hurt me or get revenge!? But why does Austin want her gone so badly? What did Maddie ever do to him? He never really goes around her unless we have dinner together which is like never. I kinda figured Austin didn't like her when he wrote on a fans paper: "Im Austin Carlile and I hate Alan Ashby's girlfriend." He claims it was a joke but I know he wasn't kidding. Not very many people like her.

At this point I'm totally fed up. I want her gone but I can't do it, I can't stand hurting her. I sigh and run a hand through my hair. This is definitely going to be a long day.

I decided it was time to go and get my car from Starbucks so I got Austin to drive me. "Thanks for the ride dude. see you tomorrow." I say as I go to close the door. "Wait." Austin says. I stop and turn to look at him. "Thanks, for dealing with my bullshit." He says kind of embarrassed. "Austin, that's what friends do." I smile and shut the door before walking over to my car and getting in.

I got home and just sat on the porch for awhile. I don't know why I decided to come home so early, I regret it already. Maddie's just going to question me about everything then she's going to complain about either her nails, hair or eyebrows then will make me take her to get them done. It's like a daily thing for her. I don't understand why she can't go on her own. I get up and walk over to the door. I take a deep breath and turn the knob. I brace myself for what's about to happen.